been awhile.. now you know why
Yeah.. not a great afternoon for me. As of right now I'm going down down in an earlier round. And even going down in flames. Things just aren't going like they should be. School is just around the rivers bend. and I owe money to them, and i consolidated my loans and was supposed to get defferment until i get out of school and start paying them then.. but I just got a letter in the mail like saturday or something that said I gotta start paying them off now. So I'm screwed with that. So yeah.. all that.. plus my phone bill every month and rent that i would be paying if i moved out.. and soon trasportation and everything.. It just all adds up and i'm ready to take to a bridge and jump... of course I never would but still.. I'm just going crazy trying to think about how I'm going to pay for all of this....
So I get a thing in the mail for an education loan that doesn't have to go through the school and everthing.. awesome right?.. .wrong. I talked to my mom about it and she was telling me that it was a bad idea.. oh.. well my idea was to get like 20-40 thousand and pay off all of my current loans and then have money saved to pay for things while i'm in school.. and I'll get a job at the same time so I can start the repayment of that loan when i have to. Which by the way WILL be deffered till i'm out of school. So yeah I woule LOVE to be able to do that. and I'd have some money left over to purchase a new computer too! which i'm about depserate need for.. cause this one is 3 years old and it's starting to act up yet again.. Gah! I'm just feeling to stressed now. I just don't know how much more i can take before I burst.. so yeay... i'm gonna get goin now cause I just blah...
So I get a thing in the mail for an education loan that doesn't have to go through the school and everthing.. awesome right?.. .wrong. I talked to my mom about it and she was telling me that it was a bad idea.. oh.. well my idea was to get like 20-40 thousand and pay off all of my current loans and then have money saved to pay for things while i'm in school.. and I'll get a job at the same time so I can start the repayment of that loan when i have to. Which by the way WILL be deffered till i'm out of school. So yeah I woule LOVE to be able to do that. and I'd have some money left over to purchase a new computer too! which i'm about depserate need for.. cause this one is 3 years old and it's starting to act up yet again.. Gah! I'm just feeling to stressed now. I just don't know how much more i can take before I burst.. so yeay... i'm gonna get goin now cause I just blah...