(no subject)
For whatever reason I have been regulated to the class of roommate/friend in the eyes of my partner (not her words but mine) as this is the only way to describe how she treats me. The only time she provides any sense of comfort or interest is at the request of her other partner. This type of effection is not good because its forced and not very genuine in my eyes. I don't want me partner to have to be told "hey your nesting partner is feeling lonely maybe you should spend some time with him for a change." Rather I want my partner to recognize this on their and make the effort to actively engage and cuddle me. I think rather than continue to put in effort where none is being reciprocated I am just not going to bother anymore. I will leave it up to my partner to decide if and when she wants to be with me. In the mean time I'm going to start doing things by myself or with people who actively want to participate in whatever I am doing.