Lost and confused
This has been a weird weekend, and that's not a good thing. Yesterday mom left to visit her father who had to have emergency surgery the day before. I'm scared for my grandpa, since this is not the first time he's had some serious medical issue, but he lives all alone in a big house. I hope everything is ok. We haven't heard from mom yet, so I'm not sure what to think.
Then today got confusing. Dad and I went to church and I realized I'm still not a real grown up in that place. I keep being introduced to people as "Karen and Mark's daughter." None of the people from my class are there, so I feel out of place in a place that used to be so welcoming. I really need to move out. I need to find my own place and start my own life. I think I really noticed it when I introduce myself to people as Katie. Katie is the girl who grew up there, Kat is the (sort of) grown up. I want to find a place where I'm Kat again.
I say I want to move out, but that is looking very unlikely at this point. I'm looking for work in Boston, but I might not be able to do that yet. I've decided I'm leaving my job before the holiday season hits; I have to. That means I might leave without another job waiting. THAT means I need to save all the money I can for my unemployed days. I don't have much in the way of savings at this point.
Oh well, that's my complaining. I hate my job, but you all knew that.
Then today got confusing. Dad and I went to church and I realized I'm still not a real grown up in that place. I keep being introduced to people as "Karen and Mark's daughter." None of the people from my class are there, so I feel out of place in a place that used to be so welcoming. I really need to move out. I need to find my own place and start my own life. I think I really noticed it when I introduce myself to people as Katie. Katie is the girl who grew up there, Kat is the (sort of) grown up. I want to find a place where I'm Kat again.
I say I want to move out, but that is looking very unlikely at this point. I'm looking for work in Boston, but I might not be able to do that yet. I've decided I'm leaving my job before the holiday season hits; I have to. That means I might leave without another job waiting. THAT means I need to save all the money I can for my unemployed days. I don't have much in the way of savings at this point.
Oh well, that's my complaining. I hate my job, but you all knew that.