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i cant sleep... and i wish i couldnt eat but thats not my way of copeing... infact over eating is my way of copeing... welcome to my major fat over load... im misserable all the time... and i have lost most of my friends but i know theese years wont mean much in the future if i get that far and thats all that matters... shannon doesnt give a shit about me any more hah my best friend i made hate me some how and i dont give a shit about myself either wooo hooo you dont haft to hate me cause i hate myself enough for you im invisable... and pitaful... and who wants to get fucked up with me... help me waste my life away!
i told dan i was going to be sober when he camed back to maryland... but i am a week person... hah who would of thought that... answer is myself... i knew i could never do anything i said i would... i have no faith in myself...
acutallly funny thing is my group therapy person told me i need counceling cause my perception on myself is totally fucked up... i cant see what is... "that im a good person and beautiful"... the things they say to people TO MAKE THEM FEEL BETTER i tell myself...
i was resently diagnosed with bipolar and MAJOR DEPRESSION and social anziety... hah who would have thought that.
so who wants to be my friend?
i dont care give my BOOOZE
i told dan i was going to be sober when he camed back to maryland... but i am a week person... hah who would of thought that... answer is myself... i knew i could never do anything i said i would... i have no faith in myself...
acutallly funny thing is my group therapy person told me i need counceling cause my perception on myself is totally fucked up... i cant see what is... "that im a good person and beautiful"... the things they say to people TO MAKE THEM FEEL BETTER i tell myself...
i was resently diagnosed with bipolar and MAJOR DEPRESSION and social anziety... hah who would have thought that.
so who wants to be my friend?
i dont care give my BOOOZE