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i feel incredibly sad and also rejected by the people i've invested so much effort into. i need prayer. whoever reads this. maybe christian will. i want to cry into someone's shoulder sometime but then i'm a "man" so it's not right for me to feel sad or need help. but i do. i do because i'm sad and angry all the time. i don't want to end up like my parents. just as they didn't want to end up like their parents. but then they did. and i'm worried that i will too, ughhh!!!!!!! talk about a real journal entry. i hate facebook because the most anyone will do is "like" something. livejournal, i know no one will read it so i can be real. dot, dot, dot, colon, open parenthesis.