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i hate the fact that i have such a short attention span and that i get distracted super easily. amidst doing assignments, i will burst into a random old song. For example, i started singing "in my head.. in my head.. zombie zombie zombie.." and that is the start of it all, cause i couldn't bring myself to concentrate on my work until i stop whatever i am doing to find the song and lyrics online to sing along to. which will then lead me to download the song (if i don't have it in my comp) which will interest me to find more songs in the album, thus more downloads. and more singing. and i will record my singing and fine tuning it again and again until i am satisfied (or just give up altogether). and so while waiting, i go on to facebook and see any updates cause i'm a facebook whore. only to realise that i have spent a good 30 minutes being distracted.
then i will get a slight panic attack where i can literally feel my heart pound and my tummy ache and i will chew my nails which i really hate cause i have stopped this bad habit but it comes back everytime i get stressed. and so i go on feeling like a failure. and after composing myself by going to the kitchen to chew on some ice cubes (cause i do this when i'm stressed), i go back to my work, strangely feeling a lot more productive cause it seems that i thrive under pressure.
but this process repeats throughout the whole day. and now you see i'm so distracted i go on to livejournal to update this shit. only thing i managed to stop myself is logging on to msn even though i am itching to. and as much as i'm panicking right now, i am very very very sure that i will complete my assignments on time cause it ALWAYS happens. just that the process is long and arduous and u just can't wait to get to the end.
ok, i'm out!