hey koool-aide!
I want to travel the world. and write about it.
I had a nervous breakdown last week. prett bad one of the worst feelings ive felt in a while.
Though nothing compared to what other are going through, but what i feel will always be different from what others are going through.
Just because I have a roof over my head and food in my tummy dosn;t mean what i feel can go be ..eh i forgot.....
Anyways I know this migt be just me making excuses for myself but i highly belive that what ever all the crap i went through (incluing acting carzy and driving to mexico...long story) was directly porportional to my fucking ass menstral-cyle. either way I've had it up to hear with the literaly parilyzing and overwhelimg feelings that ive been dealing with since high school that are due to eaither some seasonal bullshit or mesral bullshit or both..blah enough. so i've taken some pride swalloing actions.
1.I've "talked" with my parents about everything
2. Gotten the number to a councler in McAllen
3. Made a Gyno appt. at the Student Health Service to see if i can get on the birth control shot that only allows you to have three periods.
Hopefully this will clearn up some things.
AAAAANNNNNYYYYYWWWAAAAYYYSSSSS
I want to be a writer again....lol...durring the above period I had notions of quitting everything and i hated writing and school. but i just finished writing two articles back to back or the Panorama (utpa magizine) and all is well (as well as can be) in that department.
As i look around my room its almost the epitimic definition of pig-stye, latly its been gettingreally bad.
I also think i desperatly need a change. I want to move out, but alas, no money.
I still want to move out desperatly. my room is in competle dissary.
I've been spending alot of time in my car. Its a good place to focus.
My favorite thing about it is the sun roof.
Usualy i'll lay the seat back open the sun roof smoke a black and look up at the night sky.
I've also been finishing my stories in there.
I bought this really neat thing for my car, its a charger that has two house hold outlets with a USB outlet as well
all hooked up to the car....totaly freaking handy.
I've also been spending a lot of money lately...NOT GOOD.
I bought the Acrosst he Univers Delux Edition SOundtrackt1!!!.. and i love it
My sisters birthday is today and i bought her something from James Avery
I also Bought Robbie something cool as well....
I also have 5 movies that i randomly rented about a month ago and have yet to turn in.
Its ok, thay are from Hollywood video and ill never go back there again...lol.
I know that i want to become a journalist
I want to right and film and edit video
OH TOTALLY bought FInal Cut Pro Studio and Adobe Suite
hella money but My mac needs the stuff, plus its totally easier to do my assinments from home
I love edjucation discount.
I also love how to this day i still can't spell edjucation....obviously.
I think it would be really cool to work for a travel magizine and get sent all around the world, would be exclent.
eh... we'll see....
I'm not gonna lie, im such a sucker for infomercials.
I had a nervous breakdown last week. prett bad one of the worst feelings ive felt in a while.
Though nothing compared to what other are going through, but what i feel will always be different from what others are going through.
Just because I have a roof over my head and food in my tummy dosn;t mean what i feel can go be ..eh i forgot.....
Anyways I know this migt be just me making excuses for myself but i highly belive that what ever all the crap i went through (incluing acting carzy and driving to mexico...long story) was directly porportional to my fucking ass menstral-cyle. either way I've had it up to hear with the literaly parilyzing and overwhelimg feelings that ive been dealing with since high school that are due to eaither some seasonal bullshit or mesral bullshit or both..blah enough. so i've taken some pride swalloing actions.
1.I've "talked" with my parents about everything
2. Gotten the number to a councler in McAllen
3. Made a Gyno appt. at the Student Health Service to see if i can get on the birth control shot that only allows you to have three periods.
Hopefully this will clearn up some things.
AAAAANNNNNYYYYYWWWAAAAYYYSSSSS
I want to be a writer again....lol...durring the above period I had notions of quitting everything and i hated writing and school. but i just finished writing two articles back to back or the Panorama (utpa magizine) and all is well (as well as can be) in that department.
As i look around my room its almost the epitimic definition of pig-stye, latly its been gettingreally bad.
I also think i desperatly need a change. I want to move out, but alas, no money.
I still want to move out desperatly. my room is in competle dissary.
I've been spending alot of time in my car. Its a good place to focus.
My favorite thing about it is the sun roof.
Usualy i'll lay the seat back open the sun roof smoke a black and look up at the night sky.
I've also been finishing my stories in there.
I bought this really neat thing for my car, its a charger that has two house hold outlets with a USB outlet as well
all hooked up to the car....totaly freaking handy.
I've also been spending a lot of money lately...NOT GOOD.
I bought the Acrosst he Univers Delux Edition SOundtrackt1!!!.. and i love it
My sisters birthday is today and i bought her something from James Avery
I also Bought Robbie something cool as well....
I also have 5 movies that i randomly rented about a month ago and have yet to turn in.
Its ok, thay are from Hollywood video and ill never go back there again...lol.
I know that i want to become a journalist
I want to right and film and edit video
OH TOTALLY bought FInal Cut Pro Studio and Adobe Suite
hella money but My mac needs the stuff, plus its totally easier to do my assinments from home
I love edjucation discount.
I also love how to this day i still can't spell edjucation....obviously.
I think it would be really cool to work for a travel magizine and get sent all around the world, would be exclent.
eh... we'll see....
I'm not gonna lie, im such a sucker for infomercials.