choosing between choking and spitting it all out....

[stinkasmelly]

5 months.
really confused and torn up about the grieving process.
is this really it?
are you waiting on me?
are you waiting?
are you as empty as I feel?
need some guidance.
and not the ground hogs day phone conversation we've had over and over.
my life is changing in huge ways.
and.
do you know?
looking for the only persons opinion I trust....

where do we go from here?
back up make shift life in waiting.

time.... not going where I want to....................