Todays The Day...
...i have my presentation, and i'm bricking it to be perfectly honest. i wish i could find some assertiveness somewhere, and the ability to believe in myself wouldn't go amiss either. so come 1:30 as always when i do these things, i shall be sat there shitting myself, then i will talk too fast (what i have written is already crap so don't need to worry about that) and i'm gonna get myself referred AGAIN! i know this is gonna happen, but i shall try to go in there with some sort of confidence in myself (possibly the first time ever) and see if i can scape 40%, hope to god i can, i don't want to do another one.
i really don't know what is up with me recently (apart from whatever i have done to my neck, it really hurts, i must've pulled a muscle or knotted it or something, i'm in some mega pain) but i just feel down and depressed. i thought it was just my college work getting on top of me but now that i'm near enough there with my work i'm still feeling down. but it could just be this stoopid thing this afternoon, so we shall see if my mood lightens about 3:30 then we know what it was!!!! (fingers crossed)
i really don't know what is up with me recently (apart from whatever i have done to my neck, it really hurts, i must've pulled a muscle or knotted it or something, i'm in some mega pain) but i just feel down and depressed. i thought it was just my college work getting on top of me but now that i'm near enough there with my work i'm still feeling down. but it could just be this stoopid thing this afternoon, so we shall see if my mood lightens about 3:30 then we know what it was!!!! (fingers crossed)