Some things. Somethings.
It has become official. Many things are official as of right now, actually.
I think I've been spending a lot of time not realizing that I am getting older, and that I need to define more of those big words that this culture has a definition for but I do not have a personal definition for. Things like, "career," "relationships," "family," "contentment." Family is a big one. Do I want to make one? When I think of family what do I really think of? What are you thinking of? I'm pretty sure I have spent the last couple of years thinking that if I challenged the cultural definition of any of these things that I had to go and do something completely the opposite, instead of just defining it for myself. Exploration is important...but spending all my life experimenting just because I never sat down and examined things beyond the instance of "no I don't like that" is quite troublesome.
I think it's good to realize it's good to question things, and challenge things all the time, and keep asking questions, and the fact that I keep doing this good, but I need to implement the conclusions more effectively than, "Oh I'd rather not think about that now."
My bikes are a pretty good example of this.
Moving back to New York is another example of when definition will be important. Get these things straight in your head before they get too big to handle.
I know I am able to do what I feel I need to do, Portland is a bit of proof of that, but it's also solidified things about myself that otherwise I do not think I would have realized.
Also my love of whiskey would not have been realized, and this is a very large part of my personality that needed to be discovered. Yes. The whiskey. Add YouTube to this list. A list of those Importants that were lurking and then EXPLODED into your day to day in a way that you know is indulgent but just feeeeeeeeelz so good.
I think I've been spending a lot of time not realizing that I am getting older, and that I need to define more of those big words that this culture has a definition for but I do not have a personal definition for. Things like, "career," "relationships," "family," "contentment." Family is a big one. Do I want to make one? When I think of family what do I really think of? What are you thinking of? I'm pretty sure I have spent the last couple of years thinking that if I challenged the cultural definition of any of these things that I had to go and do something completely the opposite, instead of just defining it for myself. Exploration is important...but spending all my life experimenting just because I never sat down and examined things beyond the instance of "no I don't like that" is quite troublesome.
I think it's good to realize it's good to question things, and challenge things all the time, and keep asking questions, and the fact that I keep doing this good, but I need to implement the conclusions more effectively than, "Oh I'd rather not think about that now."
My bikes are a pretty good example of this.
Moving back to New York is another example of when definition will be important. Get these things straight in your head before they get too big to handle.
I know I am able to do what I feel I need to do, Portland is a bit of proof of that, but it's also solidified things about myself that otherwise I do not think I would have realized.
Also my love of whiskey would not have been realized, and this is a very large part of my personality that needed to be discovered. Yes. The whiskey. Add YouTube to this list. A list of those Importants that were lurking and then EXPLODED into your day to day in a way that you know is indulgent but just feeeeeeeeelz so good.