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[sting_to_death]

It was me dispersing so much energy just now. Everything is all right. Just a spar.

Kazahana, are you still alive?

[ The rest is added in a few seconds later. ]

I do not wish to hear anything about weird dreams anyone might have had.

(( ooc; I figured it wasn't worth posting in the OOC comm but please do assume roughly half a hour before this

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[spandexisyouth]

I still think that we should talk. Especially since I believe I may owe you an apology.

[sting_to_death]

You do.

But about what, exactly?

[spandexisyouth]

May I meet with you?

[sting_to_death]

Fine. Where?

[spandexisyouth]

How about the Bazaar? Or somewhere else if you do not like there.

[[ooc: quicklog?]]

[sting_to_death]

The Bazaar is fine. Now?

[ y! ]

Journal to Quicklog

[spandexisyouth]

Please.

[He made his way to the Bazaar. Surprisingly, to him, he felt a little bit discouraged. This wasn't a normal emotion, and he didn't like it. He had to do what was right, though. If she felt that trapped and almost strangled by his cheerfulness he needed to stop. There was a difference between not giving up and outright harassment.

Gai crossed one of the bridges and waited at the entrance to the Bazaar, extending his senses to try to pick up Lin.]

quicklog;

[sting_to_death]

[ As she walked to the Bazaar-- without using shunpo, simply walking like any human would-- Lin couldn't help but fear this would be somehow related to the last dream she had. Gai was the main character in it, and while she hoped nobody else had seen, it was fairly likely somebody else had.

The dream did reflect her true feelings, but only part of them.

It was hard to explain, though, and Lin wasn't all that confident in her ability to talk about her emotions if he asked, especially since she didn't feel particularly willing to.

She found Gai almost immediately, greeting him with a nod before, without even noticing, starting to walk towards Bastet's shop as she waited for him to talk. ]

quicklog;

[spandexisyouth]

[He fell into step beside her, trying to find the words that weren't too awkward. It wasn't something he was good at.]

I... I am sorry. I have never meant to make you feel trapped. And I do not think I would have realized I was doing that if not for your dream.

[There was another unusual hesitation.]

While I would like to be your friend, I do not want to do it at your expense.

quicklog;

[sting_to_death]

[ So he'd seen. Great. Just great.

Lin keeps quiet for a few, long seconds. ]

Do your dreams always reflect perfectly what you think when you're awake?

Re: quicklog;

[spandexisyouth]

[Gai shakes his head.]

No. In fact, sometimes they are entirely random! But the dreams that were shown to others... some of them seemed to convey the attitude that I know the dreamer has.

quicklog;

[sting_to_death]

Well, I did tell you I dislike hugs.

[ Apparently she'll make a lot of long pauses today, because here comes another one. ]

I also had another dream this month. Did you see that one too?

quicklog;

[spandexisyouth]

You did. But Bell also says he does not like hugs or cuddling or anything like that, and then does hu-- you probably did not want to know that. I apologize. But I know someone who does not mean it when they say that, and you and he are very similar at times.

[Gai nods.]

I think so. At least, I think that it was yours. It was... lonely.

quicklog;

[sting_to_death]

[ So he knew. Other people probably knew too. Just her usual luck. ]

I do not like hugs. [ A pause. ] I don't.

[ There was a but there, but she couldn't bring herself to say it. What if she didn't like being around people and didn't like being alone, either? Did it make any sense, and was it worth saying out loud? He'd just think she was weird. ]

I don't think I'm like Bell.

quicklog;

[spandexisyouth]

Then I will not hug you again unless you ever ask for it. I am sorry for pressuring you.

[He glanced at her with a small smile.]

Maybe not in some ways. But he pushes people away and does not want them to actually go away. He fights with Genius on the journals, but I know how upset he would be if Genius decided he was done with Bell.

Some people think they are safer if no one is close. But it does not work that well.

quicklog;

[sting_to_death]

Hm. [ Ah, this is a conversation she already had with Crimson, and it only left her even more confused that she already was. ]

Why not? It is safer.