Whoa...haven't been on this in awhile. Kinda forgot I had it~

[stinaxxx]

Hello....Well....Hmmmm its been awhile since I last was on here. I kinda forgot I had it.Anyhow just updating. Its funny how the friends you had, you thought you guys would be friends forever. Every single one of my friends are all different people now...growing in themselves....growing in whatever they feel right~ Man some people who I thought

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[lifeatlast]

i was always the type of person that hated change. no matter what i'd do or try, it would still be way hard for me to accept change. and i thought i'd be the same FOREVER. sometimes, deep down, i still feel like i'm the same old kid i've always been, just open to different people's perspectives. i wasnt gonna waste my time and my life hating people for changing, and proving to them that i'll always be the same and that what they've done was wrong. i had such a narrow mind back then and i'm pretty sure i've hurt some people with certain things i said or wrote... it doesnt mean i didnt mean it. because i sure as hell did at the time. but i've also learned that it's possible to completely change the way you feel about something in a matter of days, weeks, months, or years... and no matter how strong you feel about something right now, you can't say you know exactly how you'll feel about it in the future, you know? some stick to their beliefs a little longer than others, or maybe even for the rest of their lives.. and i HIGHLY respect people that can do that. i once thought i was strong enough too, but it turns out i'm human like everyone else. i am soooo much weaker than i thought i was, christina. and its bums the hell out of me sometimes... all i have to keep me sane are friends. friends that will accept me for whatever i do and have my back at all times.

god, i miss those days too.. wayyy too much. sometimes i wish i can go back =(

even though we're not as close as we used to be. even though i no longer talk to you on the phone for hours every single day... i still remember how much of an influence you were on me and i can honestly say that i couldn't have been any prouder of who i was back then. so thanks for being there when i needed you =)

i know we're both wayy busy but that doesnt mean we cant find time to catch up on things. we've got a looooot of catching up to do.

love ya<3

-russ