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Why do I only post on LJ when I'm upset? And why does it seem like I'm upset all the time? It's like I'm in a constant state of PMS. And why did you make things so complicated? They were ok. Maybe not great, but at least we had found a steady spot. Then you had to go and mix everything up. And why didn't I say how I actually felt at the time? It's too late to backtrack now and say, "FYI, when I told you this, I actually meant exactly the opposite. Can we just pretend I never said the first thing? K, thanks." And even if I did say that, it wouldn't help anything. We'd still be exactly where we are now, but even more weird. I almost wish you'd never done it. Almost.
So I was reading some old entries and I found this on Sonia's. It pretty much sums up what I want/need right now:
A woman needs to be held, even, and science has shown this, if its with someone she doesn't care about. Protective hormones are released, and the amount of hormones released depends on the degree to which she is held. The first and best is the complete surround. He wraps you in both arms, whispers how beautiful you are. Second best is the 'arm around.' He is next to you but with one arm around you. Third is he's just next to you on his elbow, but he rests his hand on your stomach and looks at you. Fourth is you snuggling up to him with your head on his chest, while he looks away into space. But when the first best happens, you feel completely, wonderfully like a woman.
So I was reading some old entries and I found this on Sonia's. It pretty much sums up what I want/need right now:
A woman needs to be held, even, and science has shown this, if its with someone she doesn't care about. Protective hormones are released, and the amount of hormones released depends on the degree to which she is held. The first and best is the complete surround. He wraps you in both arms, whispers how beautiful you are. Second best is the 'arm around.' He is next to you but with one arm around you. Third is he's just next to you on his elbow, but he rests his hand on your stomach and looks at you. Fourth is you snuggling up to him with your head on his chest, while he looks away into space. But when the first best happens, you feel completely, wonderfully like a woman.