Update
Dedication: To Kelsey and Daryl
You both have asked me to update so I shall. It seems that you are interested in my thoughts and what my heart feels. So here it is. Mwahaha.
Wow, It's been a long time since I have updated. There is not really alot that I can fill you in on, because you see I am boring. Haha. Ok. Lemme think... About Daryl: Yes, I know you all want to know about our everlasting love. That WILL last FOREVER.
Yes, I love Daryl, with almost all of my heart. There is space for the rest of you no worries. He is just so amazing. So real. So.. *sigh* I can't describe the amazing feeling. I feel happy and sad all at once, Happy because he is mine and he loves me and I love him, sad because I am not with him every moment of every day. I feel.. Energetic but tired. Tired because I didnt get much sleep last night.. Energetic because of him. He makes me who I am.
He is a sweetheart as well. He has said and done so many sweet things that just sweep me off my feet. Like when I was sick. Hehe. He was going to bring me flowers, but he didn't but that's alright. I don't mind. It's the thought that counts. He always says sweet things. Like "I will always love you" And he always calls me "A cutie" or "hottie" or "sexy" Haha. I think Beautiful is better than all those words but It's what he says so It's alright. It's all good.
I'm extremley tired. Like. It's beyond cool. It's UNCOOL. I'm going to study after I eat.. No I havn't eaten yet. Supper isn't ready. It never is. My mom is to busy packing and getting everything ready, so I starve.
I will go to sleep at 9 because I need the extra sleep. I'll take my medicine and sleep away, in a merry land with unicorns and puppy's. Ok no.
I am dizzy once again, just like I was in band class. The dizziness was insane. I felt like the world was spinning and I was standing in one spot (Ok if you think of it scientifically that is what really is happening but that's beside the point)
I don't really know what to say. I really love Daryl. Really really really.
I don't think he knows it though. Well.. he knows it but he doesn't understand how much. I know he has been hurt by.. Her (no names mentioned) and like..I dont think he can really trust me because of that. But I want him to. I'm not anything like her. I'm MUCH different. I would NEVER do that. Especially to him! He doesn't understand how I feel for him. He says he loves me more and he is sure of that but is he really? I'm not the type that always expresses how I feel out strongly and I'm sorry for that maybe that is why he thinks he loves me more all the time. But I swear he has no clue what I feel.
I'm so wounded. Ok that may sound funny. I can picture Kelsey sitting at her computer laughing and falling out of her chair. But that's besides the point.
I seriously am. So many.. problems in my life, and so many other things have occured. Daryl knows most of them. Not all of them. If he wants to know more he can ask (<-- see that Daryl =P) It's just other stuff about my step mom and my dad and whatever else. Nothing important to anyone but me and my step brother, I'm sure it didn't affect him as much because he wasn't really involved. Just me.
But seriously. Daryl. I know you are reading this. And I love you more than you will ever know. Trust me. Just because I do not show it by actually doing things doesn't mean I don't feel it. If you want me to start showing it then just tell me and I will. Everytime I feel it strongly (Which is almost all of the time, except when you get me upset or mad.) I will show it. In more ways than one. And hopefully that will make you happy and make you believe that what I feel is true.
I love Daryl.