"A good time..."
...Last night was the orgy from hell! mob rule in a fucking shot glass! i hope every one got the ego boosts they needed cause it really hurt their friends.
I hate, no, i loathe people's stupidity.
casual hookups can sometimes be ok. but between friends, and people you'll see again... its just not good. people are such asses anyway but to put everyones heart in the mix, and then shaken up with heavy doses of alcohol... it just pisses me off... and even then causual hookups are just that: OK... not good... definately not great... and to lie to yourself and say that it boosts the ego, is such fucking ignorance!
i made out with Javier (yes, i got his name) at the Derby last night. i was practicing being inviting, and smiling, making eye contact, and you know what, it worked! he came over, stole me from the group i was in, and danced with me... granted his drunk ass wanted, and tried to do much more... but he and i ended up having this make out session on the fucking dance floor... mostly cause i couldn't stop him. yeah, he was holding me really tight, and when i tried to get back, or look around for some male help, no one was around, mentally anyway... so i let him. partially cause he actually had the gusto to go in for the kill... i cannot enphasize that enough... innitiation of strength on the male's part is so vital if you want a resposnce... some men will never understand that, and sometimes even if they do, they use childish mind-game takticks to try and make the female innitiate because they are chicken shits! i digress...i made out with Javier. and today... though he was hot... very, very hot... i don't feel like it gave me an ego boost at all... its bull shit! i would have had a bigger ego boost if we would have just dance, he respected me and not be so fucking grabby, and asked for my number... thats it! because now i feel... well numb, and cheap, and irriated... i'm pissed!
what more that i'm so pissed about is everyone that went in our group last night were being whores! not that i have a thing with hookups... i meen i made out with that guy last night too... but god damnnit! i just hate it cause every one just can use and be used by people supposedly close to them... USED!... with no remorse... with no regret... i regret last night! i regret ever going... if i could do it again, i'd have gone to see my bro play at the Dome and ditched everyone... sat alone, sipping a latt`e and been happy! not having to witness the further hardening of the people i love's hearts...
in the words of and old friend, and now used by another: "i care to much"
fucking quotations!
I hate, no, i loathe people's stupidity.
casual hookups can sometimes be ok. but between friends, and people you'll see again... its just not good. people are such asses anyway but to put everyones heart in the mix, and then shaken up with heavy doses of alcohol... it just pisses me off... and even then causual hookups are just that: OK... not good... definately not great... and to lie to yourself and say that it boosts the ego, is such fucking ignorance!
i made out with Javier (yes, i got his name) at the Derby last night. i was practicing being inviting, and smiling, making eye contact, and you know what, it worked! he came over, stole me from the group i was in, and danced with me... granted his drunk ass wanted, and tried to do much more... but he and i ended up having this make out session on the fucking dance floor... mostly cause i couldn't stop him. yeah, he was holding me really tight, and when i tried to get back, or look around for some male help, no one was around, mentally anyway... so i let him. partially cause he actually had the gusto to go in for the kill... i cannot enphasize that enough... innitiation of strength on the male's part is so vital if you want a resposnce... some men will never understand that, and sometimes even if they do, they use childish mind-game takticks to try and make the female innitiate because they are chicken shits! i digress...i made out with Javier. and today... though he was hot... very, very hot... i don't feel like it gave me an ego boost at all... its bull shit! i would have had a bigger ego boost if we would have just dance, he respected me and not be so fucking grabby, and asked for my number... thats it! because now i feel... well numb, and cheap, and irriated... i'm pissed!
what more that i'm so pissed about is everyone that went in our group last night were being whores! not that i have a thing with hookups... i meen i made out with that guy last night too... but god damnnit! i just hate it cause every one just can use and be used by people supposedly close to them... USED!... with no remorse... with no regret... i regret last night! i regret ever going... if i could do it again, i'd have gone to see my bro play at the Dome and ditched everyone... sat alone, sipping a latt`e and been happy! not having to witness the further hardening of the people i love's hearts...
in the words of and old friend, and now used by another: "i care to much"
fucking quotations!