And the days...
...dwindle down to a precious few. That's a quote from my high school government / econ teacher, Bill. He's known for many MANY entertaining zingers towards classmates and, of course, myself. He remembers exactly where every student he's ever had has sat in his classroom, including my father. Bill has since retired, but anybody who has ever been his student will never forget that line.
And what better way to begin a post so close to New Year's? "And the days dwindle down to a precious few."
So, I guess you're probably all wondering what's going on... if you even still read this livejournal of mine. Well, I guess my last update was 40 weeks ago...and I can't quite remember that far back but I know I pretty much used this to post my work schedule. SO, since that time I have spent a month observing / working 2nd shift instead of my usual 1st shift. The difference is going from 6a - 2p shifts to 2p-10p shifts. Not too bad to get used to, but with a few 6-2 shifts sprinkled in, I had a hard time getting a sleeping schedule figured out. I learned a LOT of things while working on 2nd shift. Many things about myself and about the clients. I found out that Ron knows my name even though he claims to forget. I like working 2nds because then I get to see the clients more. On 1st, we get them up on week days, get them showered, dressed, "groomed," and fed. Then we transport them to day program and if you work the 6-2 you have the last 4 hours of your shift with 1-2 clients. SO, 1st is a bit more boring. But, in the same token, 2nd shifters besides myself have plenty of time to sit around and do nothing (or little to nothing). I never get to sit down. I sit down plenty on 1st, but I haven't really got any time to do that on 2nd until the clients go to bed. But, hey, every decision has at least one pro and con, right? I can't make all correct decisions. Nobody is perfect.
Oh, I also got promoted in a sense at work. It's a 25 cent raise and I am now the Med Coordinator. That pretty much sucks ass, but I think as long as I take it seriously I will do alright. I get to be in charge of all meds, appointments, immunizations, ordering meds, paperwork associated with meds, and making sure everything is in it's right spot and not expired. Yeah, what can I say? I'm not sure about this one either. But, nobody is perfect. So I'm cool, I guess. :)
Hmmm....so that's 40 weeks of work, if nothing else. Hmm... 40 weeks...that's a long time. Aren't there 52 weeks in a year?! WOW. I must've posted last around St. Patrick's day. I wish I had a lot for ya, but I don't do a whole lot.
I guess the big news is that I moved. I'm now living in Midland. For those of you out of state/country folk, it's about a 25-30 minute drive to work instead of 7, but I'm pretty much on my own. I've got a roommate, but she has a house in Bay City and I don't really see her a whole lot. I'm pretty much sub-leasing from her. Which is cool. I like being on my own. I just wish I had more ambition and some sort of social life. The exciting thing is... I don't have any furniture. Don't think of this as a complaint. I kind of like it. I put my "studio" in the living room so I'm not living in my bedroom like I was at my mom's house. My roommate's fiance(e?) is in a band and likes to play my guitars. They're both really nice people. I like having them around when they're around. I spoil them with Peanut Butter Cookies. :-D
I spoil everybody with Peanut Butter Cookies. If you want some. Come over, but give me some notice so I can shop for groceries I need and time to bake the things. :-p
So, I guess I should probably say something about my goals and ambitions for the New Year. I've decided from last year (when I had 5 resolutions and at least 3 of them were rather practical) that it's really hard to expect something from yourself. Last year (I am going to have to check because I know I posted the stupid resolutions on here...)**so apparently I didn't...** I think my resolutions were something along the line of: Be more organized. Be Calm. Write daily. Guitar as I can. Racquetball as I can. ... Yeah. Not bad. I think I'm going to try to stick to that, even though I gave up on pretty much all of them by February.
See, this year I knew I had to work on the calm thing, but I have realized by now that when people pull strings just to agitate me I just need to let go. I don't need people in my life who do nothing but jerk me around. I think I gave up on 3 or so people over the course of the year. And as that probably makes me sound like a bad person... I do these things to benefit both parties. If I was as important in these people's lives as I thought, I shouldn't feel like I did. I shouldn't feel set aside, I shouldn't feel judged, I shouldn't feel harassed, I shouldn't feel like I need to help everybody, I shouldn't feel like there's no way for me to talk to these "friends" without getting agitated. So many people walk all over me, and that's what I really need to work on. But HOW? How do I fix that? I've hit the reset button. Anybody who wants to be in my life knows how to do it, but I guess I will have to work on a guest list... if that makes sense.
Tom Petty sings, "no I won't back down / you can stand me up at the gates of hell / but I won't back down / I'm gonna stand my ground." ...well, I'm sure that's wrong but I'm listening to a different song right now, haha... This is something I need to work on. (The Tom Petty, not getting lyrics right). I need to stand up for myself. At work, and in my dwindling social world. But, it's all about respect. I respect people and I don't get any respect back. Most of you probably know about all of these things.
I appreciate my livejournal friends, those of you who I keep in touch with outside of livejournal... I appreciate those of you who just follow my LJ too, and I'm sorry you haven't gotten the back story ;) I will not promise to post again before Katelyn nudges me again, but I would like to hear from everybody who reads this, even if you don't have good things to say. Even if it's anonymous. Even if you are a random LJer. What would this world be like if nobody ever got a second opinion?
And what better way to begin a post so close to New Year's? "And the days dwindle down to a precious few."
So, I guess you're probably all wondering what's going on... if you even still read this livejournal of mine. Well, I guess my last update was 40 weeks ago...and I can't quite remember that far back but I know I pretty much used this to post my work schedule. SO, since that time I have spent a month observing / working 2nd shift instead of my usual 1st shift. The difference is going from 6a - 2p shifts to 2p-10p shifts. Not too bad to get used to, but with a few 6-2 shifts sprinkled in, I had a hard time getting a sleeping schedule figured out. I learned a LOT of things while working on 2nd shift. Many things about myself and about the clients. I found out that Ron knows my name even though he claims to forget. I like working 2nds because then I get to see the clients more. On 1st, we get them up on week days, get them showered, dressed, "groomed," and fed. Then we transport them to day program and if you work the 6-2 you have the last 4 hours of your shift with 1-2 clients. SO, 1st is a bit more boring. But, in the same token, 2nd shifters besides myself have plenty of time to sit around and do nothing (or little to nothing). I never get to sit down. I sit down plenty on 1st, but I haven't really got any time to do that on 2nd until the clients go to bed. But, hey, every decision has at least one pro and con, right? I can't make all correct decisions. Nobody is perfect.
Oh, I also got promoted in a sense at work. It's a 25 cent raise and I am now the Med Coordinator. That pretty much sucks ass, but I think as long as I take it seriously I will do alright. I get to be in charge of all meds, appointments, immunizations, ordering meds, paperwork associated with meds, and making sure everything is in it's right spot and not expired. Yeah, what can I say? I'm not sure about this one either. But, nobody is perfect. So I'm cool, I guess. :)
Hmmm....so that's 40 weeks of work, if nothing else. Hmm... 40 weeks...that's a long time. Aren't there 52 weeks in a year?! WOW. I must've posted last around St. Patrick's day. I wish I had a lot for ya, but I don't do a whole lot.
I guess the big news is that I moved. I'm now living in Midland. For those of you out of state/country folk, it's about a 25-30 minute drive to work instead of 7, but I'm pretty much on my own. I've got a roommate, but she has a house in Bay City and I don't really see her a whole lot. I'm pretty much sub-leasing from her. Which is cool. I like being on my own. I just wish I had more ambition and some sort of social life. The exciting thing is... I don't have any furniture. Don't think of this as a complaint. I kind of like it. I put my "studio" in the living room so I'm not living in my bedroom like I was at my mom's house. My roommate's fiance(e?) is in a band and likes to play my guitars. They're both really nice people. I like having them around when they're around. I spoil them with Peanut Butter Cookies. :-D
I spoil everybody with Peanut Butter Cookies. If you want some. Come over, but give me some notice so I can shop for groceries I need and time to bake the things. :-p
So, I guess I should probably say something about my goals and ambitions for the New Year. I've decided from last year (when I had 5 resolutions and at least 3 of them were rather practical) that it's really hard to expect something from yourself. Last year (I am going to have to check because I know I posted the stupid resolutions on here...)**so apparently I didn't...** I think my resolutions were something along the line of: Be more organized. Be Calm. Write daily. Guitar as I can. Racquetball as I can. ... Yeah. Not bad. I think I'm going to try to stick to that, even though I gave up on pretty much all of them by February.
See, this year I knew I had to work on the calm thing, but I have realized by now that when people pull strings just to agitate me I just need to let go. I don't need people in my life who do nothing but jerk me around. I think I gave up on 3 or so people over the course of the year. And as that probably makes me sound like a bad person... I do these things to benefit both parties. If I was as important in these people's lives as I thought, I shouldn't feel like I did. I shouldn't feel set aside, I shouldn't feel judged, I shouldn't feel harassed, I shouldn't feel like I need to help everybody, I shouldn't feel like there's no way for me to talk to these "friends" without getting agitated. So many people walk all over me, and that's what I really need to work on. But HOW? How do I fix that? I've hit the reset button. Anybody who wants to be in my life knows how to do it, but I guess I will have to work on a guest list... if that makes sense.
Tom Petty sings, "no I won't back down / you can stand me up at the gates of hell / but I won't back down / I'm gonna stand my ground." ...well, I'm sure that's wrong but I'm listening to a different song right now, haha... This is something I need to work on. (The Tom Petty, not getting lyrics right). I need to stand up for myself. At work, and in my dwindling social world. But, it's all about respect. I respect people and I don't get any respect back. Most of you probably know about all of these things.
I appreciate my livejournal friends, those of you who I keep in touch with outside of livejournal... I appreciate those of you who just follow my LJ too, and I'm sorry you haven't gotten the back story ;) I will not promise to post again before Katelyn nudges me again, but I would like to hear from everybody who reads this, even if you don't have good things to say. Even if it's anonymous. Even if you are a random LJer. What would this world be like if nobody ever got a second opinion?
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