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i hate how u can affect my world so much, the world i try so hard to protect from you, the world that i dont want you to invade.
i tell myself to be strong, to ignore it, to keep going on, i know i can push you aside.
but when i see your messages, your phone calls, they start to rise panic within me.
thinking what harm are u gonna cause me now? what friendship might i lose? where will my sanity go? i dont know why you affect me this way. right now, i wish i had block you but sometimes i feel bad for you. i feel bad for what i'm doing. but then i remember what you did. and i remember the sadness, the depression, the anger that came with it. i can't bear to pretend that i'm okay, i cant pretend that i want to be your friend when i know better. because if i do, i'm the biggest fool.
i hate writing this, but its th eonly way to get this out.
no one may udnerstand because tehres more that i keep hidden. and i refuse to spill it.
i hate this. i hate how you ruin the world i try so hard to keep free from you.
i hate the idea of losing a friendship, of creating a rift again. i dont want to think anymore, about you, about the past, about the future, nor do i want you in my life.
in the nicest way possible, which i thought made clear,
please leave me alone .
i tell myself to be strong, to ignore it, to keep going on, i know i can push you aside.
but when i see your messages, your phone calls, they start to rise panic within me.
thinking what harm are u gonna cause me now? what friendship might i lose? where will my sanity go? i dont know why you affect me this way. right now, i wish i had block you but sometimes i feel bad for you. i feel bad for what i'm doing. but then i remember what you did. and i remember the sadness, the depression, the anger that came with it. i can't bear to pretend that i'm okay, i cant pretend that i want to be your friend when i know better. because if i do, i'm the biggest fool.
i hate writing this, but its th eonly way to get this out.
no one may udnerstand because tehres more that i keep hidden. and i refuse to spill it.
i hate this. i hate how you ruin the world i try so hard to keep free from you.
i hate the idea of losing a friendship, of creating a rift again. i dont want to think anymore, about you, about the past, about the future, nor do i want you in my life.
in the nicest way possible, which i thought made clear,
please leave me alone .