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I've realized my life has been one big phony. From elementary school to the present, I have always followed the trend, I have always been scared to stand up for myself, I have always tried to fit in, and I never had confidence to be me because in reality I have no clue who I am.
Now I realized, I can't fit in because in truth, I belong to no one and no one belongs to me. I'll continue to be who I am- a shy, quiet, nice (if I may say so) person. It seems that I've watched too many movies and I've created a shell of defense against those who "care" about me the most. I get paranoid, I get crazy, my feelings take over me, I'm an example of someone waiting to explode.
I think and I feel that no one will ever know the true me. No one will ever know how much I hurt myself not physically but mentally and emotionally but I cant seem to stop myself. It's like I'm attracted to hurting myself yet I'm not. Its complicated but its not. I don't know anymore about anything, about me, about everything. Feelings suck.
For now, I'll go back to puttin on that facade that everyone loves and knows of me. A smile goes a long way right?
Now I realized, I can't fit in because in truth, I belong to no one and no one belongs to me. I'll continue to be who I am- a shy, quiet, nice (if I may say so) person. It seems that I've watched too many movies and I've created a shell of defense against those who "care" about me the most. I get paranoid, I get crazy, my feelings take over me, I'm an example of someone waiting to explode.
I think and I feel that no one will ever know the true me. No one will ever know how much I hurt myself not physically but mentally and emotionally but I cant seem to stop myself. It's like I'm attracted to hurting myself yet I'm not. Its complicated but its not. I don't know anymore about anything, about me, about everything. Feelings suck.
For now, I'll go back to puttin on that facade that everyone loves and knows of me. A smile goes a long way right?