my closet for a kingdom
so i'm doing (no trying, doing or not) the great american apparel diet starting next month.
i don't really have a clothes-shopping addiction, but i think cutting off this shopping will make me more mindful of my other junk shopping, b/c i can't just buy the thing i went out to buy, or not buy the things i don't need.
if i go out to the drugstore to get deoderant, i will inevitably also buy lotion and snacks.
if i see a "sale" i will walk in and find s/thing to buy b/c it's a sale.
but in the end i just wear the same tshirts.
my most real problem, i grocery-binge.
my freezer and cupboards are FULL of pastas and mixes and cans, and veggies and meats that are probably freezer burnt by now.
i think i should just take a $10 bill to the store to pay for milk and bread and eggs and live off my hoard for a month or two.
(and then start hoarding all over again? i wonder if i should just fill the cupboards with books and photoframes and pretty things, b/c i just want to see them well-stocked. but what if we're hit w/ another snowpocalypse??)
i'm not in any credit card debt, but according to my mint.com account, i consistantly spend s/what more than i earn in a month (i'm not sure if this is due to the timing of my pay checks vs my creditcard payments or what, but when i do the math on my own, they're not that wrong), and since i don't really monitor my accounts, i'm not aware of their steady state of decline.
vs the increase of my student loans by leaps and bounds.
but maybe it's not really abt the money.
i wonder if this is the spending habits of a poor girl gone rich, or the equivalent of dessert-for-dinner-b/c-i-can (i don't have to make the honor-roll to earn that pretty thing, i can buy it now, w/out begging mommy and daddy!!!).
for one thing, buying junk contributes to the production of junk (w/ its emissions, probably unethical cheap labor, waste of resources, etc) by showing demand.
i'm not exactly "hoarding" but.
instead of buying stuff for new projects, why don't i finish some projects first?
what did i even have in mind when i got all those stickers and buttons and lace anyway?
(another conundrum wrt projects: my mother thinks i should stop giving ppl hand-made things [that aren't food] b/c it's mostly kitsch that ppl can't get rid of b/c it's "hand-made" and thus more special than store-bought kitsch that can evtl get goodwilled. she forbidded me from making more felt teddybears after hs, for instance)
anyway, so it goes. no clothes shopping for a whole year.
i'll think about it more while i'm doing it.