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a fortnight ago i spent the weekend in canberra. officially for the last hardluck show, unofficially just to hang out with aaron. he spent most of this week in melbourne. it was really nice. we did some cute stuff - drive-in and double date dinner. it just feels good to have someone to be comfortable around and to be loved and appreciated. i really wouldnt have chosen to date someone who lives interstate again but guys who are that warm and funny and talented and sweet dont come along too often so i figure i have to take the chance. there will be no relocating this time though, i can guarantee it!
otherwise the rest of my life has kinda flatlined. i feel like i am treading water, waiting for something to change. i lost my media analysis work which has really halted my travel savings. im pretty bummed about it, i had about two days notice that they were moving the contract to another office and wanted to do it all in-house. i need some serious motivation. actually, what i need to do is throw my fucking computer out the window. its sucking my soul. when im 50 i doubt i will look back and fondly remember all the hours i spent playing plants vs zombies or posting on twitter. the most annoying thing is that i dont even want real life company. im happier staying at home where i dont have to listen to other peoples dribble and pretend to care/be interested in their trivial issues. i realise the irony of saying that while i am posting my own trivial crap online.. fuck it. im going to bed.
otherwise the rest of my life has kinda flatlined. i feel like i am treading water, waiting for something to change. i lost my media analysis work which has really halted my travel savings. im pretty bummed about it, i had about two days notice that they were moving the contract to another office and wanted to do it all in-house. i need some serious motivation. actually, what i need to do is throw my fucking computer out the window. its sucking my soul. when im 50 i doubt i will look back and fondly remember all the hours i spent playing plants vs zombies or posting on twitter. the most annoying thing is that i dont even want real life company. im happier staying at home where i dont have to listen to other peoples dribble and pretend to care/be interested in their trivial issues. i realise the irony of saying that while i am posting my own trivial crap online.. fuck it. im going to bed.