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i have to quit these drinking benders and being the last person in the club when the lights are on and everyone else is home in bed like a smart person. im constantly wiping myself out and getting sick. my body hates me. not to mention i do all manners of stupid things when im intoxicated and it seems to completely erase any standards i have for the opposite sex.
i think i do it so i am not at home alone having a pity party and being miserable. if i go out, at least i am putting myself out there and meeting people and catching up with people. recently though, a couple of lovely friends have been inviting me for catch ups that dont involved drinking myself into oblivion and its really nice. i think i can have fun just doing that. the nicest option would be to have someone to come home too, but a year later thats a distant memory.
i think i do it so i am not at home alone having a pity party and being miserable. if i go out, at least i am putting myself out there and meeting people and catching up with people. recently though, a couple of lovely friends have been inviting me for catch ups that dont involved drinking myself into oblivion and its really nice. i think i can have fun just doing that. the nicest option would be to have someone to come home too, but a year later thats a distant memory.