in order to fly away
I am DONE!!!
Finished with my last paper for this semster, and damn does it feel good. 6 pages of almost pure crap, but hey-I can deal with that small fact.
My room is empty right now. My ma and brother came down for the big move-out. Since...I'll be going to Italy next semester.
That is so much closer. I am so close to going to freaking ITALY. Imagine that. That's insane!! And amazing. And for some wicked weird reason, all the people on the Siena facebook groups are from freaking Cali!! WTF?! Like, no one is from the east coast!! Whatever, I guess after next semester I will have way too many friends in Cali and I'll have to visit all the time. Yeah-and then FINALLY I'll get to go to CALI!!!! Ach, I've been wanting to do that for a while, that would be awesome.
Anyhoo-I'm super excited about going. Nervous as hell, sure! But very very excited. I'm looking at this experience more as a learning experience socially than intellectually. I have to learn to trust people more. I have to realize that...hey, there is a REASON why so many people talk to you or invite you places. So maybe once in a while, you should get over your nervousness around them and just let it go. Let yourself be real. I guess it can be hard for me to be real around a lot of people, I feel like they will laugh. And leave. I guess it is easier just to be what they want! Hey, I KNOW what they want-so might as well give it to them right? But...I have to get past that and understand that hell-people want me. HAHAHA-and not (always) in that way. Ach. You know what? I have to get over THAT too. I have to fucking realize that there are guys (and GIRLS) who actually think that I am beautiful. That think about kissing me, or just hugging me for a very prolonged period of time. I have to get over the feeling taht my body is not up to par and that no guy would ever be interested, because that idea is SHIT. It is!! lol. Good lord, there are men and boys and girls and ladies who really genuinely think I am a hot woman. THANK THE LORD! lol. I guess what I need most of all is just...
to let it all go.
Italy-get ready, because one of the most influential, astounding, beautiful people of the friggin' universe is coming your way. And she wants to free her dreams.
I love my life. No matter what shittiness lies ahead-there will always be some golden days to look forward to.
~Katy friggin Ott
Finished with my last paper for this semster, and damn does it feel good. 6 pages of almost pure crap, but hey-I can deal with that small fact.
My room is empty right now. My ma and brother came down for the big move-out. Since...I'll be going to Italy next semester.
That is so much closer. I am so close to going to freaking ITALY. Imagine that. That's insane!! And amazing. And for some wicked weird reason, all the people on the Siena facebook groups are from freaking Cali!! WTF?! Like, no one is from the east coast!! Whatever, I guess after next semester I will have way too many friends in Cali and I'll have to visit all the time. Yeah-and then FINALLY I'll get to go to CALI!!!! Ach, I've been wanting to do that for a while, that would be awesome.
Anyhoo-I'm super excited about going. Nervous as hell, sure! But very very excited. I'm looking at this experience more as a learning experience socially than intellectually. I have to learn to trust people more. I have to realize that...hey, there is a REASON why so many people talk to you or invite you places. So maybe once in a while, you should get over your nervousness around them and just let it go. Let yourself be real. I guess it can be hard for me to be real around a lot of people, I feel like they will laugh. And leave. I guess it is easier just to be what they want! Hey, I KNOW what they want-so might as well give it to them right? But...I have to get past that and understand that hell-people want me. HAHAHA-and not (always) in that way. Ach. You know what? I have to get over THAT too. I have to fucking realize that there are guys (and GIRLS) who actually think that I am beautiful. That think about kissing me, or just hugging me for a very prolonged period of time. I have to get over the feeling taht my body is not up to par and that no guy would ever be interested, because that idea is SHIT. It is!! lol. Good lord, there are men and boys and girls and ladies who really genuinely think I am a hot woman. THANK THE LORD! lol. I guess what I need most of all is just...
to let it all go.
Italy-get ready, because one of the most influential, astounding, beautiful people of the friggin' universe is coming your way. And she wants to free her dreams.
I love my life. No matter what shittiness lies ahead-there will always be some golden days to look forward to.
~Katy friggin Ott