I need an "unrefresh" button!
Why don't they have one?
There is way too much shit going down around here for me to even begin to deal with.
As of today, I am taking a break from classes. I'm sure that will cause general chaos with all involved, but you know what? I'M LOSING IT! And am finding it impossible to focus for the length of time needed to deal with the work involved. I want/need/wish to start anew in the summer. AFTER I've dealt with all this other stuff that keeps getting in my face. (Mostly people with issues, who have now managed to create issues for me and possibly those close to me---lol---good thing there aren't many of them!)
I'm tired of having to walk on eggshells just to go about my life.
For some, I can say "This is upsetting me, and I'm done with this exchange", others "I'm sorry I can't live up to your expectations."-and it works, temporarily. Then others can't seem to deal with things and expect me to deal with their wrath. I have no problem with that. You can't begin to fathom the shit I've had to deal with, believe me. As I've always said, you're a bit late-should've gotten to me years ago! The only problem I have is that it is incredibly draining to have to deal with that kind of stress. And it fucks up my schedule. Work, school, life, moving, clearing it all out because I won't be back-there's nothing to come back to!, all takes time, focus and energy. All of the BS is depleting my resources. Yeah, it is going to set me back a pace, both financially and time-wise, but I do know what my priorities are.
Going with the flow often leads to drowning. Many have been forever lost. To get where you WANT to go, and YES! It DOES matter where you want to go!, you must chart your course and steer---take control! Signs are helpful! Pay attention!
I'm not running from anything. There is just nothing here for me. I'm walking to where I want to be. And I've got a chainsaw---just in case!
I really don't care about what anyone thinks anymore. I'm way beyond all that. There are very few opinions that matter much to me. All I seek is health, happiness and a safe place to rest my head. I don't think that is too much to ask for. Woe to anyone who tries to get in my way.
There is way too much shit going down around here for me to even begin to deal with.
As of today, I am taking a break from classes. I'm sure that will cause general chaos with all involved, but you know what? I'M LOSING IT! And am finding it impossible to focus for the length of time needed to deal with the work involved. I want/need/wish to start anew in the summer. AFTER I've dealt with all this other stuff that keeps getting in my face. (Mostly people with issues, who have now managed to create issues for me and possibly those close to me---lol---good thing there aren't many of them!)
I'm tired of having to walk on eggshells just to go about my life.
For some, I can say "This is upsetting me, and I'm done with this exchange", others "I'm sorry I can't live up to your expectations."-and it works, temporarily. Then others can't seem to deal with things and expect me to deal with their wrath. I have no problem with that. You can't begin to fathom the shit I've had to deal with, believe me. As I've always said, you're a bit late-should've gotten to me years ago! The only problem I have is that it is incredibly draining to have to deal with that kind of stress. And it fucks up my schedule. Work, school, life, moving, clearing it all out because I won't be back-there's nothing to come back to!, all takes time, focus and energy. All of the BS is depleting my resources. Yeah, it is going to set me back a pace, both financially and time-wise, but I do know what my priorities are.
Going with the flow often leads to drowning. Many have been forever lost. To get where you WANT to go, and YES! It DOES matter where you want to go!, you must chart your course and steer---take control! Signs are helpful! Pay attention!
I'm not running from anything. There is just nothing here for me. I'm walking to where I want to be. And I've got a chainsaw---just in case!
I really don't care about what anyone thinks anymore. I'm way beyond all that. There are very few opinions that matter much to me. All I seek is health, happiness and a safe place to rest my head. I don't think that is too much to ask for. Woe to anyone who tries to get in my way.