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So for the second time this semster i took the fall for me and Mary BOTH drinking in the room. I have to make some bulletin board for the hall about alcohol awareness.. fuckin gay! what the hell ever gosh i hate this bitch. I am in one hell of a mood today let me tell you. Its beautiful outside but i am soooo pissed today. i want to beat the hell out of Mary and the way im feeling today i just might do it. I wanted to talk to one of the only people who can put me in a good mood but of course there was no answer and then when i finally got called back i was in class and then i tried to call back again like 9 freakin minutes later.. no answer again. sucky. And yeah i will be having whoever i want over from now on whenever the fuck i want. GRRRR stupid hoe. I think sometimes im to damn nice to people. And i also think i care to damn much... sometimes i tell the same retarded ass people the same damn thing so many times i feel like my jaw will fall off and i will just bleed to death. I think i have just learned so much about myself and what i want in life in the last year that people who cant see the same damn things get on my nerves. Such as suzanne who is constantly measuring her worth by what a guy thinks. STOP being like that. There are like 6 billion people in the world. Find the one you are supposed to be with. The one who is telling you how you can and cant spend your money, the one who doesnt ever have time to call you or be with you, the one who makes you feel like shit, the one who tells you that u cant hang with your friends, the one who wont label you his girlfriend even though he has talked about making you the mother of his fuckin kids...,HES NOT THE ONE. Stop being a desperate idiot. Be picky find what u are looking for. thats my advice. Just because u like him doesnt mean he is the right one... who cares... end it now before it gets to late and you get even more hurt. UGH i dont enderstand making someone feel crappy about themselves. I have been in this place... you feel like you will die without that person.... but everyday you wake up. You feel like you can never love again.... but somewhere down the road you find love again, and it may take a while. You may have to try more than once. you may have to let a few guys go if they arent willing to give you what you want and need. Dont you understand that this isnt love? if love was this crappy why the hell would we be wandering around this world trying to find love? stop being a fucking idiot.
I may not know about communism or politics or fuckin biology. But i can say i know about love and mistakes and in that sense i have been there. You think no one else knows what u are going through but they do. People deal with this everyday. People who cant see how great they are make me want to break down into tears.
And right there is a prime example of how you should be. Stop trying to save the world by being friends with everyone some people dont deserve to be your friend... and thats just the end of the story. People are to nice... if someone (or thier friend) is tryin to make you feel like a worthless piece of shit... go the fuck off on them.. they deserve it. If someone did that to me i would say "who the hell do you think you are?"
NO ONE will EVER make me feel like im useless ever again. I almost died. Impretty sure i was depressed. And everyday i woke up miserable. Over who? fucking Brucie.... some loser who treated me like crap and told me that i was only popular because of him...even though everyone hated him cause he was an arrogant piece of crap. Someone who made me feel like i wasnt good enough to leave him and find anyone else. I was raped by my own boyfriend once... do you realize now the place i was in? I hope you get some insight now on why i have some issues and have no problem telling people to fuck off if they try to treat me bad. Because i love hard with every inch of who i am and i do it unconditionally and if you think u deserve this then let me know otherwise leave me alone.
ok now ive let it out got really emo and said the F word 800 time so im done
THE END
I may not know about communism or politics or fuckin biology. But i can say i know about love and mistakes and in that sense i have been there. You think no one else knows what u are going through but they do. People deal with this everyday. People who cant see how great they are make me want to break down into tears.
And right there is a prime example of how you should be. Stop trying to save the world by being friends with everyone some people dont deserve to be your friend... and thats just the end of the story. People are to nice... if someone (or thier friend) is tryin to make you feel like a worthless piece of shit... go the fuck off on them.. they deserve it. If someone did that to me i would say "who the hell do you think you are?"
NO ONE will EVER make me feel like im useless ever again. I almost died. Impretty sure i was depressed. And everyday i woke up miserable. Over who? fucking Brucie.... some loser who treated me like crap and told me that i was only popular because of him...even though everyone hated him cause he was an arrogant piece of crap. Someone who made me feel like i wasnt good enough to leave him and find anyone else. I was raped by my own boyfriend once... do you realize now the place i was in? I hope you get some insight now on why i have some issues and have no problem telling people to fuck off if they try to treat me bad. Because i love hard with every inch of who i am and i do it unconditionally and if you think u deserve this then let me know otherwise leave me alone.
ok now ive let it out got really emo and said the F word 800 time so im done
THE END