"i'm not okay...I'M NOT OKAY"
So i just spent the last half hour crying in the shower in a heap on the floor. After getting dressed and regathering strenght I am making a statement for all to see.
Mickey,
It's over. There will never be a "second chance" nor will I continue to consider it. I've spent years perfecting the art of being me. I was able to live without the need to be made happy. Maybe that's what drew me to you, because you needed someone to make happy. But i'm done with it all. I'm done with you and I don't care how harsh this sounds or selfish. We won't be friends it could never work. You care about me far more then I care about you. But that doesn't mean I don't care for you. I never meant to hurt you but then again you never meant to hurt me. So here's my goodbye, my fairwell, my sign off. I'll carve it in your wrist if i have to. I can't do this anymore. It sucks for me too ya know. If you do recall you weren't the only one who fell in love. If I could i'd take it all, all the pain and suffering you're going through, cause that'd be so much better. There's no more talking it over. I'm moving on, you should too. Turn your back right now, don't cry another fuckin tear. I hate myself for this more then you'll ever fathom but it's how I want it. Even if i'm not happy about it, it's what I know is right. Tell yourself you hate me you'll thank me for it in the future just trust me on this one. I love you. Goodbye.
and with that I'm signing off for awhile. School's tomorrow. Don't try and fix what's wrong. I've never been much of a fan for pity either. just be a friend and let things be folks. It's a choice i've made. I'm willing to face the consequences. He should be too.
The girl ending it all.
Mickey,
It's over. There will never be a "second chance" nor will I continue to consider it. I've spent years perfecting the art of being me. I was able to live without the need to be made happy. Maybe that's what drew me to you, because you needed someone to make happy. But i'm done with it all. I'm done with you and I don't care how harsh this sounds or selfish. We won't be friends it could never work. You care about me far more then I care about you. But that doesn't mean I don't care for you. I never meant to hurt you but then again you never meant to hurt me. So here's my goodbye, my fairwell, my sign off. I'll carve it in your wrist if i have to. I can't do this anymore. It sucks for me too ya know. If you do recall you weren't the only one who fell in love. If I could i'd take it all, all the pain and suffering you're going through, cause that'd be so much better. There's no more talking it over. I'm moving on, you should too. Turn your back right now, don't cry another fuckin tear. I hate myself for this more then you'll ever fathom but it's how I want it. Even if i'm not happy about it, it's what I know is right. Tell yourself you hate me you'll thank me for it in the future just trust me on this one. I love you. Goodbye.
and with that I'm signing off for awhile. School's tomorrow. Don't try and fix what's wrong. I've never been much of a fan for pity either. just be a friend and let things be folks. It's a choice i've made. I'm willing to face the consequences. He should be too.
The girl ending it all.