Gawd

[stiletto85]

Some times I wish I don't have any feelings at all. I would not be hurt so much, I would not worry about people liking me, and I would not worry about stupid people. I could be the tin man, well the tin women. I would not have to worry about anything, but oiling the joints. I would not have my heart broken. Sometimes I wish I was not in a relationship. One of his exgirlfriends is on my last fucking nerve. Confrentation may happen. I wish sometimes if people had a bone to pick with me or have a question about something that they think I have said. Just come up to me. Gawd it's not a hard thing to do. Don't run from me. I know I've said stuff about people. It's nothing bad. Normaly I'm just blowing off steam. People who assume stuff about me really piss me off. Before you start talking about me behind my back get to know me first. If you dislike me for whatever reason fine I don't care, but do you know me? Have you taken the time to get to know me? Or is it just the fact of what everyone else has said? Does everyone else know anything about me? The answer there is No. People around here just know about me. They don't know me personaly. No one really does. The only person who knows a hell of alot about me is Matt.

Oh and for the thrid year in a row I'm in pep band. Pep Band is Great! One of the best thinks I think that I have chosen to do. Mainly because it's a hell of a lot of fun. Well Hatch doesn't seem to like it. I just want to tell him sometimes what I think about the man. I hate being treated like I'm a preformance major. All I want to do is teach. I don't want to play clairnet for the rest of my life!

Okay enough with my pissyness about stupid stuff. I'm out. Night all.