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What have a been doing these past few months?
Since I am not allowed to breathe any of the outside air, I've been cooped up and bored in my home. My futile attempts to squander the boredom included an intense FFR session, a phone call to Preston, and an hour of organizing my itunes...Finally, I just decided to read my old entries on here. I used to be so much more intelligent. I used to have interesting things to say. I used to be able to write well. People used to like me.
Now all I do is bitch and complain. Sure, I bitched and complained a hell of a lot then, but it resulted in beautiful words. Looking back, I don't even remember being that person.
I never believed Alexander Velazquez until right now, but I've now stumbled upon the fact that I really did lose myself.
So what is there to do now? Restore myself to my former state? ...highly unlikely. I guess all I can do is try and improve my ways of living, thinking, communicating and being. I will not allow myself to become a slave to things that are unreal. I will be nicer and try and repair a few friendships that seem to be fading. I will read more and indulge in laziness much less.
Here's to self-improvement.... or something like it.
Since I am not allowed to breathe any of the outside air, I've been cooped up and bored in my home. My futile attempts to squander the boredom included an intense FFR session, a phone call to Preston, and an hour of organizing my itunes...Finally, I just decided to read my old entries on here. I used to be so much more intelligent. I used to have interesting things to say. I used to be able to write well. People used to like me.
Now all I do is bitch and complain. Sure, I bitched and complained a hell of a lot then, but it resulted in beautiful words. Looking back, I don't even remember being that person.
I never believed Alexander Velazquez until right now, but I've now stumbled upon the fact that I really did lose myself.
So what is there to do now? Restore myself to my former state? ...highly unlikely. I guess all I can do is try and improve my ways of living, thinking, communicating and being. I will not allow myself to become a slave to things that are unreal. I will be nicer and try and repair a few friendships that seem to be fading. I will read more and indulge in laziness much less.
Here's to self-improvement.... or something like it.