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"Write 10 statements to 10 different people. The things you think, but will never say. Never reveal the names of the people and never speak of this again"
1. We aren't friends..and frankly, I don't think it's accurate to say that we ever really were. You hate me now because I'm a "drama queen" and you don't know what they "see in me" But nonetheless, if it weren't for you inviting me to spend lunch with you that one day in seventh grade, I wouldn't be the person I am today. You helped me break out of my shell and make new friends..and I thank you for that.
2. With you, it's basically a love/hate relationship..and I mean that to the fullest. I think you're extremely outgoing, fun to be around, sweet, and unique...yet at the same time, sometimes I think you just adjust your personality to match your current love interest's. The way you dress, talk, and the music and things you like will change completely based upon who you're "dating." I also don't think you are mature for your age at all. This aside, I still enjoy your company very much and love the way you can make anyone in the group feel included and liked.
3. Yes, things have changed..and as much as I'd like them to go back to how they were, I know it wouldn't work out. It seemed like you never made an effort in anything. It was always me. I was the one driving here, there, and everywhere, ignoring other obligations, spending money, wasting gas, blowing off work, not being insecure...even things as little as keeping the fucking conversation going. It was annoying how you got mad so easily and blamed everything on me. It was also really annoying the way you always compared me to her...and looking back, I can't really say that the laughs we had were worth it.
4. There are things about you that I really admire...but I'm starting to think things are developing for all the wrong reasons. I appreciate the way you appreciate, and notice, the things I do..and I like how you take responsibility for a lot of things. You're easy to talk to and a great person. However, I think you're too normal and your mind is too sound. I think that in the end, I would feel too weird and would have to reserve myself a bit to keep from freaking you out.
5. You take things too seriously...sometimes the things people say are only out of retaliation to the things you say, and sometimes you shouldn't read so far into things. The way you look at things is really shallow and I really don't think you're as intelligent as you pretend to be. A lot of the time, you criticize people, including myself, on the way they live, yet you are quite guilty of these ways yourself...and just because it's not YOUR way, doesn't mean it's wrong. I find it ironic how selective your morals are and how hypocritical you are in your judgments.
6. I don't really know you that well yet..but I think you're a really cool person. It seems that we share a lot of the same interests as well as the same cynicism. I admire the way you are so blunt with what you say, and I think you are extremely mature for someone who is 14. Also, the interests we share are the rare ones, at least in this city...and I think we could really get along, in the long-term sense. I like talking to you because you call me out on my bullshit, even though you barely know me, so it isn't really "polite." ...and I feel really weird saying this, but I'm slightly interested in you, I can't tell in what way...but I know that I want you in my life in some way, shape, or form.
7. I wish you would see how selfish you are. I understand your situation, but your ideals are far too, well, idealized. You've built something up so far in your mind, that you think it is the ONLY thing. Yet, if you were to really experience it, you would be very very disappointed. I don't like this about you, and I feel that in time, it might screw up more than it already has.
8. It seems as if, after all these years, you've always been there. Sometimes we've been a bit distant, but most of the time we've been fairly close. When friends have changed and moved on, it seems like you've pretty much always stayed by my side..and I really appreciate you and value you as a friend. I hope we can start to spend more time together, because I miss you..and this is definitely going to give it away, but I don't care..but I was going through old papers and stuff, and I found a list of outfits, titled "Fun Week"...haha, remember that?
9. Sometimes the things you ask me to do are a bit unreasonable, but I still really wish I could help you out in these times. I really like how you don't negatively judge me when I disagree, and I hope you understand that I'd drop everything to help you if I could..and give it a few more months, and I'll be able to help you out a lot more.
10. A lot of the time, you involve yourself in things that are really none of your business, and sometimes you say things out loud that you really shouldn't. I understand that it hurts your self-esteem, but arguing with the person telling you isn't exactly the best way to gain reassurance. In certain situations, you need to realize that things that are YOUR problem, are that exactly..YOURS. By trying to drag others in the middle of it, you're making yourself a bit un-liked. Nonetheless, I do think you're an incredibly positive person, and you are my confidence and my support group.
Please don't assume one of these is you.
1. We aren't friends..and frankly, I don't think it's accurate to say that we ever really were. You hate me now because I'm a "drama queen" and you don't know what they "see in me" But nonetheless, if it weren't for you inviting me to spend lunch with you that one day in seventh grade, I wouldn't be the person I am today. You helped me break out of my shell and make new friends..and I thank you for that.
2. With you, it's basically a love/hate relationship..and I mean that to the fullest. I think you're extremely outgoing, fun to be around, sweet, and unique...yet at the same time, sometimes I think you just adjust your personality to match your current love interest's. The way you dress, talk, and the music and things you like will change completely based upon who you're "dating." I also don't think you are mature for your age at all. This aside, I still enjoy your company very much and love the way you can make anyone in the group feel included and liked.
3. Yes, things have changed..and as much as I'd like them to go back to how they were, I know it wouldn't work out. It seemed like you never made an effort in anything. It was always me. I was the one driving here, there, and everywhere, ignoring other obligations, spending money, wasting gas, blowing off work, not being insecure...even things as little as keeping the fucking conversation going. It was annoying how you got mad so easily and blamed everything on me. It was also really annoying the way you always compared me to her...and looking back, I can't really say that the laughs we had were worth it.
4. There are things about you that I really admire...but I'm starting to think things are developing for all the wrong reasons. I appreciate the way you appreciate, and notice, the things I do..and I like how you take responsibility for a lot of things. You're easy to talk to and a great person. However, I think you're too normal and your mind is too sound. I think that in the end, I would feel too weird and would have to reserve myself a bit to keep from freaking you out.
5. You take things too seriously...sometimes the things people say are only out of retaliation to the things you say, and sometimes you shouldn't read so far into things. The way you look at things is really shallow and I really don't think you're as intelligent as you pretend to be. A lot of the time, you criticize people, including myself, on the way they live, yet you are quite guilty of these ways yourself...and just because it's not YOUR way, doesn't mean it's wrong. I find it ironic how selective your morals are and how hypocritical you are in your judgments.
6. I don't really know you that well yet..but I think you're a really cool person. It seems that we share a lot of the same interests as well as the same cynicism. I admire the way you are so blunt with what you say, and I think you are extremely mature for someone who is 14. Also, the interests we share are the rare ones, at least in this city...and I think we could really get along, in the long-term sense. I like talking to you because you call me out on my bullshit, even though you barely know me, so it isn't really "polite." ...and I feel really weird saying this, but I'm slightly interested in you, I can't tell in what way...but I know that I want you in my life in some way, shape, or form.
7. I wish you would see how selfish you are. I understand your situation, but your ideals are far too, well, idealized. You've built something up so far in your mind, that you think it is the ONLY thing. Yet, if you were to really experience it, you would be very very disappointed. I don't like this about you, and I feel that in time, it might screw up more than it already has.
8. It seems as if, after all these years, you've always been there. Sometimes we've been a bit distant, but most of the time we've been fairly close. When friends have changed and moved on, it seems like you've pretty much always stayed by my side..and I really appreciate you and value you as a friend. I hope we can start to spend more time together, because I miss you..and this is definitely going to give it away, but I don't care..but I was going through old papers and stuff, and I found a list of outfits, titled "Fun Week"...haha, remember that?
9. Sometimes the things you ask me to do are a bit unreasonable, but I still really wish I could help you out in these times. I really like how you don't negatively judge me when I disagree, and I hope you understand that I'd drop everything to help you if I could..and give it a few more months, and I'll be able to help you out a lot more.
10. A lot of the time, you involve yourself in things that are really none of your business, and sometimes you say things out loud that you really shouldn't. I understand that it hurts your self-esteem, but arguing with the person telling you isn't exactly the best way to gain reassurance. In certain situations, you need to realize that things that are YOUR problem, are that exactly..YOURS. By trying to drag others in the middle of it, you're making yourself a bit un-liked. Nonetheless, I do think you're an incredibly positive person, and you are my confidence and my support group.
Please don't assume one of these is you.