would you lie with me and just forget the world?
this has been a good spring break. lots of hours with work, a trip to Disneyland with good friends, and a rare day to really just do nothing.
This might have been my favorite trip to Disneyland, at least of the last few. Spending the night at Katie's did not feel weird. Neither did being with her all day at Disneyland. It was a day without pressure, angst, or frustration. Simply awesome.
So I need to eat my words a little right now. I like Kirstie. Now, before Karin jumps off her chair (or couch, or balance ball, or whatever she is sitting on) and screams "I told you so," this is a recent development. At the time that I was previously being accused, I did not have any special feelings for her. And even now, its not a major crush. But I cannot deny that I like her more than just as a friend. The question is, what to do about it? My current answer is nothing. She is leaving for Spain in 5 months, and will be gone for a year. I don't want to handle that. It is enough to deter me from making a move. Now if something happens, it happens. I will just go with the flow. But the combination of the fact I have no idea how she feels about me and her year abroad in Spain makes me feel like standing down is the best idea. Curse the nation of Spain. It is taking two girls that I like away next year.
i went from being in a good mood when i started this post to now being kinda depressed. fml.
This might have been my favorite trip to Disneyland, at least of the last few. Spending the night at Katie's did not feel weird. Neither did being with her all day at Disneyland. It was a day without pressure, angst, or frustration. Simply awesome.
So I need to eat my words a little right now. I like Kirstie. Now, before Karin jumps off her chair (or couch, or balance ball, or whatever she is sitting on) and screams "I told you so," this is a recent development. At the time that I was previously being accused, I did not have any special feelings for her. And even now, its not a major crush. But I cannot deny that I like her more than just as a friend. The question is, what to do about it? My current answer is nothing. She is leaving for Spain in 5 months, and will be gone for a year. I don't want to handle that. It is enough to deter me from making a move. Now if something happens, it happens. I will just go with the flow. But the combination of the fact I have no idea how she feels about me and her year abroad in Spain makes me feel like standing down is the best idea. Curse the nation of Spain. It is taking two girls that I like away next year.
i went from being in a good mood when i started this post to now being kinda depressed. fml.