Lost Within You
Well I havn't posted in a while so i figured i'd throw a lil something out. I am exhausted. I can't sleep lately. I can't figure out why but thats just it. I am slightly lost this week....more so then usual. I just want to fall asleep and wake up somewhere other then in this dark and lonely place. There is definatly something missing from my life that has been missing for a while. I can't pin point what it is but i feel like a large piece of my soul has taken leave of myself.
"I breathe in and out watching the cold air turn my warm breath into some ghostly art work. Welcome to the winter of my discontent. Welcome to the land where every dream, every hope, everything I have ever loved has fallen, fallen cold beneath the rest of the world. I fall to my knees and stare hard at the ground. I let my pale fragile hands brush the desolate earth beneath me. For a second I swear I felt as if I were part of this nightmarish place. I fall onto my back startled, gasping for air.I look all around for someone, anyone to save me. I realize I am really all alone. Here of all places! How could you have left me HERE? Knowing full well how I needed you. Your touch kept me from falling to this level and you just LEFT? My thougts turn from insane anger to crippling fear. You, My love , are really gone. Now I lay flat on back staring at the sky. I can hear myself screaming. My words inaudible, My tone, fucking terrifying. So terrifying in fact that I scare myself. The peircing tortured yelps cease. My grey eyes search again. Again I come up empty. I give up. Laying in this damned world, surronded by everything I just wish would dissapear but never does. I choke on your betrayal just as i choked the blood filling my lungs when you stabbed me in the back, just as you will choke on your vomit in the end."
I couldn't describe how i felt in any other way then in this strange story....so there it is
"I breathe in and out watching the cold air turn my warm breath into some ghostly art work. Welcome to the winter of my discontent. Welcome to the land where every dream, every hope, everything I have ever loved has fallen, fallen cold beneath the rest of the world. I fall to my knees and stare hard at the ground. I let my pale fragile hands brush the desolate earth beneath me. For a second I swear I felt as if I were part of this nightmarish place. I fall onto my back startled, gasping for air.I look all around for someone, anyone to save me. I realize I am really all alone. Here of all places! How could you have left me HERE? Knowing full well how I needed you. Your touch kept me from falling to this level and you just LEFT? My thougts turn from insane anger to crippling fear. You, My love , are really gone. Now I lay flat on back staring at the sky. I can hear myself screaming. My words inaudible, My tone, fucking terrifying. So terrifying in fact that I scare myself. The peircing tortured yelps cease. My grey eyes search again. Again I come up empty. I give up. Laying in this damned world, surronded by everything I just wish would dissapear but never does. I choke on your betrayal just as i choked the blood filling my lungs when you stabbed me in the back, just as you will choke on your vomit in the end."
I couldn't describe how i felt in any other way then in this strange story....so there it is