Doubt becomes the new addiction
This morning i couldn't get anythign right. Weightlifting is usually one of my favorite class but we has push up drills for an hour ... i cant do push ups. And i want to try and not give up but i don't want to slow anyone else down.
When i feel rushed i start doubting my abilities and when i doubt my abilities i give up and today my arms gave up on me and i couldnt feel them for almost an hour.
I thought Newspaper class would cheer me up. I love that class! i love everything about that class!
Sammi, Heather, Nia, Amani, Chong, Kelsey! They are all so amazing!
Miss Strothers is my favorite teacher.
So i get in class and i lay my head down hoping to feel my arms again and i couldn't.
So Miss Strothers being the caring teacher she seems to be ask whats wrong only she says
" Anthony"
Anthony is the name of an immature student in our class who acts like a 9 year old.
She called me that three timesu ntil i realized she was speaking to me and i just pointed at Anthony and she apologized for calling me him. She only fucked my name up 2 more times calling me anthony.
That really made me feel like shit ... my faovrite teacher doesnt even know my fuckin name.
Usually i'd find something like that funny but today im doubting myself too much.
Went to Pre Cal. Understood it.
Went to lunch and listened to music.
Felt much better.
Ate lunch with Rick. Went to work. Came home and Slept.
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Voices, rise above the ground
They’re lifting up, to tear you down
[Hope please guide me, and stand beside me
When I am empty, please remind me
That you are here]
Rise
This path is paved, with voices
Words dressed up in good intentions
A wardrobe full of fiction
The teeth will sink in your conviction
Doubt becomes the new addiction
Tear you down
When i feel rushed i start doubting my abilities and when i doubt my abilities i give up and today my arms gave up on me and i couldnt feel them for almost an hour.
I thought Newspaper class would cheer me up. I love that class! i love everything about that class!
Sammi, Heather, Nia, Amani, Chong, Kelsey! They are all so amazing!
Miss Strothers is my favorite teacher.
So i get in class and i lay my head down hoping to feel my arms again and i couldn't.
So Miss Strothers being the caring teacher she seems to be ask whats wrong only she says
" Anthony"
Anthony is the name of an immature student in our class who acts like a 9 year old.
She called me that three timesu ntil i realized she was speaking to me and i just pointed at Anthony and she apologized for calling me him. She only fucked my name up 2 more times calling me anthony.
That really made me feel like shit ... my faovrite teacher doesnt even know my fuckin name.
Usually i'd find something like that funny but today im doubting myself too much.
Went to Pre Cal. Understood it.
Went to lunch and listened to music.
Felt much better.
Ate lunch with Rick. Went to work. Came home and Slept.
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Voices, rise above the ground
They’re lifting up, to tear you down
[Hope please guide me, and stand beside me
When I am empty, please remind me
That you are here]
Rise
This path is paved, with voices
Words dressed up in good intentions
A wardrobe full of fiction
The teeth will sink in your conviction
Doubt becomes the new addiction
Tear you down