He's the man.
So about a bajillion people have been wondering who the boyfriend is.
It's Eric. Yes, the Eric that flew out on my birthday last year, and the Eric that I stayed with a lot when I first came out. The Eric that served in my ward two years ago.
I figured I would try it out. We've been together for a bit over a month now. It's fun to have someone and a boyfriend for the first time in my life, thought it's weird. I can't help but get a little awkward when I'm around 'single people' because I want to flirt, I want to get to know people, and I feel like I have to be all relationshipish. However, if whomever I date has an issue with me being social, we won't be dating...so I guess I should just be me.
I don't feel an eternity awaiting. Eric knows that. Not now. It's more for a fun factor, though lately his life has been stress and right before that it was mine that was stress, so there's been a lack of fun. I don't know how long we'll be together, but it's fun to have someone to care about. I think it's been good for me just because I'm a very affectionate person and it seems that out here in Salt Lake when I act affectionate like I did back home in Michigan, people get the wrong vibes and act differently toward me. I'm glad I have someone I can just be my affectionate-loving-self around.
I've grown a LOT on my own, so it's been good. And he's growing a lot too. I feel like the relationship is more of a helping-one-another thing...more like a close friendship like it was before, but with some public hand holding. Companionship. I get weird about PDA. I know with the right person I won't.
So anyway, right now I'm just focusing on one thing at a time. I just got a new job, so I will work and work to pay off my student loans by year's end. I'm also focusing on losing 80 pounds. Then I will decide what I want to do from there: mission or school [though I want both!]. I may change a lot in a year, so I will see where my heart lies.