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I don't feel like giving up...
...but I feel really discouraged for absolutely no reason at all.
I watched "Made" today and there was a girl my size training for a 5K.
She worked her butt off, and she did it. RUNNING.
I want to run. I suppose I need a roll of duct tape first, so I don't hurt myself running.
One of the week she worked out all week and ate right, and gained a point (muslce, perhaps?)
So I was like, "I'm NEVER going to reach my goal!" I don't know how people can do it in a year, even!
My gosh.
Her trainer said something though that really hit me.
"Sometimes we have to do the things that we don't want to get what we want."
VERY true. And I DO want, though. I want this healthy style I'm adapting. Though I can tweak it even healthier as I lose more weight.
Why am I so discouraged?!?!
I'm really struggling with obsessing over every little thing now. It's good, but it's not when I start fussing and snapping and my parents have to intervene.
It's gotta be sugar withdrawal. That's the only answer.
I just feel so blah.
Next week...I HAVE to make myself get out of bed. I'm not even tired in the morning anyway. I know I will feel so much better about myself once I start waking up early and motivating.