CES Fireside
I feel a lot right now, but I don't feel like putting it to words.
I think that's a good thing. It's good to keep personal things with the Lord alone.
That was a great CES broadcast...Sister Tanner's testimony of scripture made me tear up. I loved the choir, too (and not because I saw my friend from Utah in it either). I love "Search, Ponder, and Pray" and I loved the last piece "I Love the Lord" (tune of "Be Still, My Soul")...just wow. I felt like I had to bottle of some of the ways it moved me though, for reasons I care not to discuss in a public post.
I don't know why...whenever I feel so moved and very tender spiritually, I want to be left alone. Not in the "leave me alone" sense, but sort of. I want family to leave the room, I want to be alone with my thoughts and heart. Sometimes I want someone to share with though...someone who actually cares and wants to talk about the gospel, to share learnings, to be excited about testimony. Okay, every time I feel this way I want someone to share with.
Today at church was such a soft spot day. I left sacrament meeting during the closing talk to find a picture for my lesson since I left my picture packet at home. My new visiting teacher walked by and came in the room with me and just sat with me and talked, listened, shared. This was the first time we've ever really talked, except in primary since she's also a primary teacher and her oldest two kids (twins) are in my sunday school class. She's a beautiful 28-year-old woman and a vibrant young mother of six who has been through a lot. Her eyes glistened and glowed when we talked. I could've just hugged her, but I didn't. But I've been thinking of her all day, and I just feel this amazing radiant light from her. I had to smile to myself when I realized we both missed half of sacrament meeting and I went in when it was over to get my tote bag, only to see that my pictures were right in there the whole time.
Hmmm....so much more on my heart, but I feel like being quiet and reserved.
Oh yeah, and I bought the dress. Black, long, layered mesh sheer flowy empire seem open skirt (If you click on "the dress" you can see it...I swear it actually looks good on me...and pretty formal, since I have stumpy legs and it skirts the floor...the way the skirt material flows is gorgeous...the picture doesn't look very nice, but I make it look good for once ;)), and a beaded sheer shawl (can't find a picture of it, but it's black sheer, with long skinny tassles and the black beading skirts the outer edges and is in the same exact floral pattern as the brooch). And shoes. Oh...and I splurged and bought some clothes, too. And at Younkers (I never shop there) and JCPenney, at that. Whoops. But I felt like getting some nice things for work/trips. Oooh! And cupaluv reminded me! I went to a movie (Exorcism of Emily Rose) with her (Relly!) and her boyfriend Zac! It wasn't actually scary at all, but it was a pretty good movie! I missed her so much!