*dusts off* "Is this thing on?" *taps mic*
I usually have this space of about five minutes in the morning that I usually spend talking to Christopher since it's about noon:30 in Englandlandland and he's just coming off lunch. We chat about The Apprentice UK and boys and then I go to work. Well I've been very naughty and haven't watched the last eps yet (I KNOW! I've been sick!) so I'm coyly avoiding him until I watch them tonight. Don't tell him I'm here!
Anyhoodle, the other night I was watching this thing on TCM where actors interview other actors and this one featured Alec Baldwin interviewing Gene Wilder. I'd just got done watching the original version of The Producers and of course Willie Wonka and realizing that though I'd slept on him for a long time, I was kind of in love with Gene Wilder. An ode to his gentile nature and quiet, stormy presence may come later, but this is for now.
He mentioned something about a higher power, that he didn't know what it was or if it were a man or woman or any such thing. I wondered about that, especially given the man is near 80. Gene and Alec walked arm and arm through this beautiful campus talking about many things but their conversation about the uncertainty of God is what caught me off guard. It's such an important thing, you know? I remember in Hot Shots Lloyd Bridges mentioned being scared of death and wondering about the afterlife and I wondered, "When does thinking about God get easy?".
I was talking to a good friend about it and the conversation went a bit like this:
Me: I don't know, by 80 wouldn't you know? I mean, that's a long time to think about it, right?
Her: Not necessarily, I mean, your life gets hectic mid age, right?
Me It does, so maybe.. it's a long time to have put it on hold?
Her: Exactly, and when you're coming to the end of your life, and more alone, you start thinking about being with the people you love.
Me: In a way you've become so earthly bound that you've forgotten about Heaven? Is that good, or bad?
I still don't know, but it is interesting. God has never been an issue with me, believing in Him is second nature to breathing. At night I brush my teeth, take my medicine, call my mom, say my prayers and go to bed. In the morning I thank God for waking me up and starting me through my day. I think for a religion that has such stringent consequences you'd want to be completely assured of it while you're young, because the world can break it out of you, I've seen it.
We as humans always find a way to tweak and meddle with things we have no power over. Trying to mandate what is right and what is wrong not based on the actuality of the event, but on how it makes us feel at that very moment. Does God care if you're gay? I don't know yet, but I know a few hundred thousand people that will tell you "YES AND HE HATES IT" on His behalf without really knowing Him at all.
In our struggle to separate God and mammon we've turned mammon into our god, and that's the scariest thing of all. Right?
ps. This post evidently brought to you by the fact that I'm going to San Francisco pride and religiously freaking out about it. Appropriately. Ahh, self reflection in the morning... I've got to start watch The Apprentice UK eps on time.
Anyhoodle, the other night I was watching this thing on TCM where actors interview other actors and this one featured Alec Baldwin interviewing Gene Wilder. I'd just got done watching the original version of The Producers and of course Willie Wonka and realizing that though I'd slept on him for a long time, I was kind of in love with Gene Wilder. An ode to his gentile nature and quiet, stormy presence may come later, but this is for now.
He mentioned something about a higher power, that he didn't know what it was or if it were a man or woman or any such thing. I wondered about that, especially given the man is near 80. Gene and Alec walked arm and arm through this beautiful campus talking about many things but their conversation about the uncertainty of God is what caught me off guard. It's such an important thing, you know? I remember in Hot Shots Lloyd Bridges mentioned being scared of death and wondering about the afterlife and I wondered, "When does thinking about God get easy?".
I was talking to a good friend about it and the conversation went a bit like this:
Me: I don't know, by 80 wouldn't you know? I mean, that's a long time to think about it, right?
Her: Not necessarily, I mean, your life gets hectic mid age, right?
Me It does, so maybe.. it's a long time to have put it on hold?
Her: Exactly, and when you're coming to the end of your life, and more alone, you start thinking about being with the people you love.
Me: In a way you've become so earthly bound that you've forgotten about Heaven? Is that good, or bad?
I still don't know, but it is interesting. God has never been an issue with me, believing in Him is second nature to breathing. At night I brush my teeth, take my medicine, call my mom, say my prayers and go to bed. In the morning I thank God for waking me up and starting me through my day. I think for a religion that has such stringent consequences you'd want to be completely assured of it while you're young, because the world can break it out of you, I've seen it.
We as humans always find a way to tweak and meddle with things we have no power over. Trying to mandate what is right and what is wrong not based on the actuality of the event, but on how it makes us feel at that very moment. Does God care if you're gay? I don't know yet, but I know a few hundred thousand people that will tell you "YES AND HE HATES IT" on His behalf without really knowing Him at all.
In our struggle to separate God and mammon we've turned mammon into our god, and that's the scariest thing of all. Right?
ps. This post evidently brought to you by the fact that I'm going to San Francisco pride and religiously freaking out about it. Appropriately. Ahh, self reflection in the morning... I've got to start watch The Apprentice UK eps on time.