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I doubt that I will ever get into another one of those soul-baring and dependable relationships. Finding someone with the ability to give as much as you do is the toughest thing. We're all too selfish, too hung up with our own needs and wants that we should not be permitted to raise adolescents who will grow only to become replicas with bar codes. I allowed myself the pleasure of you. I did what I could never do, I opened up and I let you into my darkness and in return, you let me into yours. In either darkness, we would alternate and hide in. We found comfort and peace while in isolation from this big bad world. We held on tight, you were my eucalyptus tree and I was the koala (vice versa of course). When you fell, I tried to pick you up but you chose not to get up. You wanted to stay down, maybe sink. You left the darkness. Up till now, it feels like I was forcing myself into it. I don't know and I probably would never know because I can be very impulsive sometimes. Right now, the memories are not fresh as the dew that settled over the leaves neither are they stuffed in a barrel of c4 waiting to be blasted into oblivion which makes looking at the big picture so much clearer. I shouldn't have let myself indulge in all this hullabaloo called love. The dictionary's definition only explains love as a molotov formed by mere chemicals that are triggered by our 5 senses (which dictionary am I quoting?). Then it makes no sense as to how we can be in love as it is not a situation but an emotion. When you're sad, you're sad. Not in sad, not falling in sad either. You cannot be able to describe love in any rational, nonscientific way and expect to make sense. Maybe it is time for a new play. Maybe next time I'll find a certain someone who isn't afraid of falling. Maybe we could dive headfirst into a pitch dark pit of love and maybe if we're lucky enough, we'll walk away with only broken skulls and bones. Anything phsycologically harming would only be our downfall. Anything physically harming, would simply equate to being self-destructive and a lot cheaper to get over(if we price one sess with the shrink at $200).

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