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well.
i quit my old job. it was depressing. i got a new job, full time at whole foods. its the best job ive ever had. ive already met a ton of really incredible people. im broke. thats okay. my first paycheck will be in soon. my bike is fixed. i just need the money to go pick it up. im writing again. im reading more. im applying for an internship with metro times. im trying out for a band. im not looking for anyone. im traveling this summer, i dont care if i break probation. i still drink. i still smoke. i havent done drugs for over three years. thats done. im getting some new tattoos when the money comes in. im getting an apartment, hopefully with jussy, if not then by myself. i have bad dreams. they are vivid. but i analyze them all day at work, and they usually just make me come to terms with shit. i dont watch tv. i rarely sit down for a movie. i come up with metaphors and analogies a lot. ill give you one if youre interested. i think about the times my dad lectured me. i think about everything my mom taught me about the person i am. i think about my sister inspiring me to have a fucking soul. i think about my brothers at the lake. i miss my home. i think about the good times ive had with certain friends, theyve helped shape me into who i am, whether they know it or not. i have no enemies. i listen to music that intensifies whatever emotion im experiencing at that place and time. i think about the love i once felt, and why that feeling is gone. pain and joy are experienced in bursts. each day is a life in itself. all in all, im alive.
i quit my old job. it was depressing. i got a new job, full time at whole foods. its the best job ive ever had. ive already met a ton of really incredible people. im broke. thats okay. my first paycheck will be in soon. my bike is fixed. i just need the money to go pick it up. im writing again. im reading more. im applying for an internship with metro times. im trying out for a band. im not looking for anyone. im traveling this summer, i dont care if i break probation. i still drink. i still smoke. i havent done drugs for over three years. thats done. im getting some new tattoos when the money comes in. im getting an apartment, hopefully with jussy, if not then by myself. i have bad dreams. they are vivid. but i analyze them all day at work, and they usually just make me come to terms with shit. i dont watch tv. i rarely sit down for a movie. i come up with metaphors and analogies a lot. ill give you one if youre interested. i think about the times my dad lectured me. i think about everything my mom taught me about the person i am. i think about my sister inspiring me to have a fucking soul. i think about my brothers at the lake. i miss my home. i think about the good times ive had with certain friends, theyve helped shape me into who i am, whether they know it or not. i have no enemies. i listen to music that intensifies whatever emotion im experiencing at that place and time. i think about the love i once felt, and why that feeling is gone. pain and joy are experienced in bursts. each day is a life in itself. all in all, im alive.