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I think about the way CS Lewis put it in The Weight of Glory:
Indeed, if we consider the unblushing promises of reward and the staggering nature of the rewards promised in the Gospels, it would seem that Our Lord finds our desires, not too strong, but too weak. We are half-hearted creatures, fooling about with drink and sex and ambition when infinite joy is offered us, like an ignorant child who wants to go on making mud pies in a slum because he cannot imagine what is meant by the offer of a holiday at the sea. We are far too easily pleased.
I've been seeing SF for the last 4 months and I still love Seattle so much more. I don't care if you're cloudy and overcast right now, you're still so beautiful to me. I enjoy being wrapped in your cool green embrace. I enjoy driving down your empty streets at night. I love the people that live inside you. There are so many things about you that I still wish to learn. SF is merely a stop, not a destination. Someone I'd like to visit and get to know, but ultimately, I just want to be with you.
That's how I feel right now, but am I making mud pies in a slum when a holiday at sea is offered to me? I understand what Lewis is trying to convey in that quote, but what if making mud pies in a slum is all the joy the child needs -- maybe he gets seasick and is more of a fan of the earth or the sky rather than the sea? Ultimately, it's about how Lewis feels we are too willing to settle for what we have, rather than strive for more...but I suppose there is a balance.
So where do you want to take me, Lord? Earlier this week, I visited MC and when I saw the 82nd/Church Without Walls video, I felt a strong pull to serve alongside my brothers and sisters. I wanted to join this wonderful community and go out and serve the homeless alongside them. Today I was at EKC...and I talked to a bunch of people. Some of the kids that I was a counselor for at youth camp 5 years ago are now getting ready to go to college -- this is insane. Some of them are dressed all fashionably now haha...but it doesn't change the potential for influence I have with them. They wanted to talk to me and hear what I was doing and I wanted to know what was going on with them and help em out with anything they were going through, but alas...my time in Seattle is limited. I want to be a part of their lives, to help them grow, to help sharpen them.
You seem so perfect for me right now, but here I am...perhaps SF is the land of mud pies and I'm wasting my time here. I was pretty much offered a job by Dennis at Amazon...he said he wanted me on his team and he's the principal software engineer, but he hasn't contacted me otherwise because he knew I was busy with my startup. I got his contact info and I guess we'll see what happens. Of course I'd have to get through an interview, but God will give me the words I need for that so I don't worry about interviews anymore.
I feel so good about you, though. It's both a feeling and a choice I'd like to take, but I guess I'll pray for discernment
Indeed, if we consider the unblushing promises of reward and the staggering nature of the rewards promised in the Gospels, it would seem that Our Lord finds our desires, not too strong, but too weak. We are half-hearted creatures, fooling about with drink and sex and ambition when infinite joy is offered us, like an ignorant child who wants to go on making mud pies in a slum because he cannot imagine what is meant by the offer of a holiday at the sea. We are far too easily pleased.
I've been seeing SF for the last 4 months and I still love Seattle so much more. I don't care if you're cloudy and overcast right now, you're still so beautiful to me. I enjoy being wrapped in your cool green embrace. I enjoy driving down your empty streets at night. I love the people that live inside you. There are so many things about you that I still wish to learn. SF is merely a stop, not a destination. Someone I'd like to visit and get to know, but ultimately, I just want to be with you.
That's how I feel right now, but am I making mud pies in a slum when a holiday at sea is offered to me? I understand what Lewis is trying to convey in that quote, but what if making mud pies in a slum is all the joy the child needs -- maybe he gets seasick and is more of a fan of the earth or the sky rather than the sea? Ultimately, it's about how Lewis feels we are too willing to settle for what we have, rather than strive for more...but I suppose there is a balance.
So where do you want to take me, Lord? Earlier this week, I visited MC and when I saw the 82nd/Church Without Walls video, I felt a strong pull to serve alongside my brothers and sisters. I wanted to join this wonderful community and go out and serve the homeless alongside them. Today I was at EKC...and I talked to a bunch of people. Some of the kids that I was a counselor for at youth camp 5 years ago are now getting ready to go to college -- this is insane. Some of them are dressed all fashionably now haha...but it doesn't change the potential for influence I have with them. They wanted to talk to me and hear what I was doing and I wanted to know what was going on with them and help em out with anything they were going through, but alas...my time in Seattle is limited. I want to be a part of their lives, to help them grow, to help sharpen them.
You seem so perfect for me right now, but here I am...perhaps SF is the land of mud pies and I'm wasting my time here. I was pretty much offered a job by Dennis at Amazon...he said he wanted me on his team and he's the principal software engineer, but he hasn't contacted me otherwise because he knew I was busy with my startup. I got his contact info and I guess we'll see what happens. Of course I'd have to get through an interview, but God will give me the words I need for that so I don't worry about interviews anymore.
I feel so good about you, though. It's both a feeling and a choice I'd like to take, but I guess I'll pray for discernment