I owe alot to you.....
Nicole, I love you sooo fucking much. I am working myself in overdrive. I'm feel less hurt right now. Alot less hurt but I still feel some pain. Still scared of losing you. I found the source of my problem and I am trying to fix it down inside myself. I love you so much babe. Don't ever forget that.
I was talking to my friend Rae last night. She made me realise my problem. Told me that I did it once before but with someone else and I realise. That she was totally right. I shouldn't have crapped on my friendship with her. And I know that I shitted on ours. Babe, your the only one for me. And I am working my ass of right now to set things right inside my self. The reassurance and the help from my friends. They are gonna be there for me. All of them. I just need to get out right now. Get some fresh air. Clear my head and go on walks again.
I don't talk about my problems with you because then I get scared you will leave because when I talk about my problems. I worry, Worry leads to me being scared and blind. Doing things I shouldn't in this case. Accusing you of such hanus acts. I apologize so much Nicole. I wish you could understand just how sorry I am.
I was talking to my friend Rae last night. She made me realise my problem. Told me that I did it once before but with someone else and I realise. That she was totally right. I shouldn't have crapped on my friendship with her. And I know that I shitted on ours. Babe, your the only one for me. And I am working my ass of right now to set things right inside my self. The reassurance and the help from my friends. They are gonna be there for me. All of them. I just need to get out right now. Get some fresh air. Clear my head and go on walks again.
I don't talk about my problems with you because then I get scared you will leave because when I talk about my problems. I worry, Worry leads to me being scared and blind. Doing things I shouldn't in this case. Accusing you of such hanus acts. I apologize so much Nicole. I wish you could understand just how sorry I am.