day 1 of my plan
so i started my "conquering plan" today (thats what i call it) and i did ok...started out with just a half a diet coke most of the day and right before i got in the shower i was like ooo...ill weight myself - and im 101!! *grins madly* i was psyched - i was like ok, only 15 pounds til my goal weight - i can get there and maybe even sooner than i thought...
but then... i saw hershey kisses and i was like well i could just eat one (YEAH OK, LIKE THAT EVER HAPPENS) so i had like 10 or so... ugh... im so HORRIBLE! i had wieghed myself just awhile ago and that shouldve given myself the desire to say no - but NO since im a fatass and cant say no, i gave in... uhhh - so i took a stacker2 after that, which sorta made me feel a little better, but i wouldve been better if i hadnt eaten them at all...
i dont know why i do it to myself.... it makes me feel so guilty afterwards, like i just ran over a puppy or something. its guilt that isnt just because i couldnt resist but guilt that now its in me and is just adding to my fatness and will just take me longer to get to my goal...
so im still drinking the same diet coke(0cal)that i started this afternoon, and i had 10 crackers, which is 140cal. (5=70cal) and someone at work made some popcorn, so i had some, but not a lot, like a handful cause it smelled really yummy. and i took a stacker2 after i ate that and the crackers. i brought an apple to work, but i dont think that im gonna eat it cause im not that hungry right now - so ill prob just leave it in my locker for tomorrow.
i dont know how much the popcorn was calorie wise, but im gonna say like 200cal since i know that it had some butter on it, and then the hershey kisses are like 230cal for 9 ( i think if i remember correctly) so i had 570cal today -- so tomorrow it WILL be LOWER b/c i will not give in to crap and shit.
hopefully if i can get my lazy ass to do it tomorrow, im gonna post some pics of me - and hoepfully ill see them and get some inspiration to get my fat ass in gear on my plan...
any support is much appreicated!!! i need it!!
love and luck to all -- think thin my friends!!
but then... i saw hershey kisses and i was like well i could just eat one (YEAH OK, LIKE THAT EVER HAPPENS) so i had like 10 or so... ugh... im so HORRIBLE! i had wieghed myself just awhile ago and that shouldve given myself the desire to say no - but NO since im a fatass and cant say no, i gave in... uhhh - so i took a stacker2 after that, which sorta made me feel a little better, but i wouldve been better if i hadnt eaten them at all...
i dont know why i do it to myself.... it makes me feel so guilty afterwards, like i just ran over a puppy or something. its guilt that isnt just because i couldnt resist but guilt that now its in me and is just adding to my fatness and will just take me longer to get to my goal...
so im still drinking the same diet coke(0cal)that i started this afternoon, and i had 10 crackers, which is 140cal. (5=70cal) and someone at work made some popcorn, so i had some, but not a lot, like a handful cause it smelled really yummy. and i took a stacker2 after i ate that and the crackers. i brought an apple to work, but i dont think that im gonna eat it cause im not that hungry right now - so ill prob just leave it in my locker for tomorrow.
i dont know how much the popcorn was calorie wise, but im gonna say like 200cal since i know that it had some butter on it, and then the hershey kisses are like 230cal for 9 ( i think if i remember correctly) so i had 570cal today -- so tomorrow it WILL be LOWER b/c i will not give in to crap and shit.
hopefully if i can get my lazy ass to do it tomorrow, im gonna post some pics of me - and hoepfully ill see them and get some inspiration to get my fat ass in gear on my plan...
any support is much appreicated!!! i need it!!
love and luck to all -- think thin my friends!!