how am i doing
well, today a really good friend asked how i can go through all of this without hurting myself? i am not bipolar or selfdestructive, but there have been times were i have wanted to commit suicide. I have gone through so much shit, it sucks big nuts. I'm talking maybe elephant size nuts or bigger!! it just sucks, period. I miss my mom, my daddy might go to jail, even though he is acting retarded my brother is moving to mexico and he is the one i have fun with the most, i miss my older sister roxie who took care of me when we got kicked out of where we were living, i miss my friends in laredo, and i miss esmer. I didn't get to advance and know i don't know what to do anymore. Sometimes, i wish i could get on a bus go back to laredo and try to get some things a little clearer than what i think of them. but i'm trying to be real patient and trying to continue with the life i got now, but it is very painful. i'm lost..