i give up
let me start off by saying yet again, i give up.........i'm tired of a lot of shit that has been going on here in my house. Supposably my sancturary, it has been a hellrific ride. my day started off by me wanting to beat the shit out of my younger brother. but my father was there, so i had to keep my cool. I swear, when he gets here, he is going to get a piece of my mind and maybe a broken nose. thats if i am nice. He tries to put a hand on me, god please help him. I will break one of his arms and make him suffer. i don't care what my father does to me. he can send me to juvy, iss, bootcamp, back to my mothers, i don't give a shit!!!! Josh needs to be put back in his place. my older bros can't do shit because they are over 18, but i am 17, so all hell will break loose. He thinks he is all that and a bag of potato chips because he is a chonger and is in a gang. and if one of his chonger friends tries anything, i will make an example out of him in front of everybody that i am not someone they want to fuck with, ever. I am a very vicisous person who is scared because i know what i am capable of, that is the only reason i have kept my temper secluded for so long. I know that if someone gets me to that point, it is possible that i can kill them. i am scared to death of what i might do to josh, please, some one help me....every period today has sucked. physics sucked, english sucked, us history sucked, band sucked and prep sucked. Then i couldn't go back to guard practice or to get my instrument because i had to stay home and watch my little brothers and sisters. i am not giving up, but i don't know, maybe i should just give up on her...........