what every man cannot live without
Its been a while since i have had a girlfriend or last spoken to my mother. i been really hard, really hard. i miss them both so much that just thinking about it makes me want to cry. a man is nothing without a women by his side. someone who is loyal, stands by their side at all times, and someone who fills that empty space in their hearts. and a man cannot live without the comfort of a mother. seventeen hard years i have spent struggling, going through hell, not knowing if i can wake up the next morning in the same bed or house for that fact, but i still had what i needed; my mother. i have not spoken to her for four months. i don't know what to think anymore. i wanted to call her and tell her we made it to state, but i would of started to cry and i know she would have too. she supported me so much in band, but not in life generally. i miss her so much...i also miss have that specail someone by my side. will that ever happen again, and if so, how long must i wait? Should i call my mother and let her know what we have accomplished, or should i still hold on to this grudge? Well, enough nonsense. i guess i should just try to forget about it or something. i donno what to do anymore....