Does the love, or just friendship still exist? (Chapter 1/6)
Title: Does the love, or just friendship still exist? (Chapter 1/6)
Chapter Title: " I need the beam... even for a few seconds... just a few seconds..."
Pairing: Xabi Alonso/Steven Gerrard
Summary: Xabi is no longer sure about what he felt and sensed~
Feedback: Would be very much appreciated and welcomed!!!!
Author: stevielovesxabi
I need the beam... even for a few seconds... just a few seconds...
After such a long time, the beam comes. Even I am just sharing a little tiny part of it, I am more than satisfied, yes, even sharing with the one I have such a complicated feelings on, I am actually glad to have this chance. It is the match towards Wigan on Anfield, the Kop is again crowded with people, with our supporters, the scene that I am always glad to see.
As the second half started, we kept running on the pitch and looking for the best opportunity. We have to win this match for our chance at the League. We need the all 3 points to fulfill our destiny and we play even harder in the the remaining 45mins. The chance comes! Nando, Finn and Stevie are in good positions! I make a long-range pass to Nando, Nando has a quick pass to Stevie and then to Finn, Finn crosses back to Nando....GOAL!!!!!!! What a perfect goal!
Immediately I run to Nando and celebrate his goal, he's my old friend, my friend from the National Team, a kind-hearted and passionate little buddy, though a bit shy, but love playing football deep in his heart. He's now the star for the Reds, shining like Stevie, and I'm sure Stevie likes him too, in the way they are always celebrating, the way that Stevie keeps on recalling him in front of the press...... just like the way we did in the old days...... the days long long ago......
Am I jealous?
We run along the pitch, and then, Stevie joins us and later on, so do others. He grabs his arm round my neck, I can feel his warmth, his excitement and his joy; the smile on his face, the happiness deep in his heart, that's all I want, even for just a few seconds, even I am sharing it with Nando....... or maybe stealing from what Nando deserves. The wordings is not what I care, what I care is now in my arm, although it lasts for a few seconds alone.
I know it sounds strange, but after the kiss at Istanbul, I just find myself having a strange feeling towards our captain. There is no doubt that he was just too excited and would like to share the joy with a kiss, a kiss with anyone nearby, however, I just cannot forget the memoriable moment.
We were once so close, sharing on every tiny stuff, his Alex, his girls his youngster life, and even our hairstyle and outlooks, I found myself digging my head into his life, I wanted to know everything that has happened on this gorgeous lad. His hegemony, his charisma, he's born to be the captain. He looked so attractive that I had a moment wishing I'm a girl. I don't know how to define my feeling towards him, I have Nagore with me, a beautiful and nice girl that every man will dream for, and my baby which Nagore brings me, the precious present and all, but Stevie, he still takes up a very special position in my heart. Sometimes I will go straight to help him out even Nagore is here in Liverpool. I just cannot understand the embedded reason.
As time flies, I find that we are no longer as close as before. Maybe I have attended too few matches during the year with my injury, maybe I'm not playing as well as the captain expects, or maybe, just maybe, his focus is now on someone else, on our new star, the liverbird recently joined us and brings us hopes. It's normal for a captain to take care of the new lad, especially one who's already a super star in the world football who can bring victories to the Reds. The Reds, that's all Stevie is thinking of. What I can do is just trying my best to get fit, for my own good and the Kop, or maybe, partly for delighting him. I don't know why I am thinking in this way, but, I guess I do really have that thought in my mind somehow.
After some weeks, I am back on the pitch, and finally, playing alongside our captain. I am so glad to have my performance back to standard and maybe, also glad to have the chance to share victories with Stevie again. We are so apart these days and I hope we can be back to the old days again....... My tiny hope seems to be hard to come true as things haven't changed much after I'm back to the team. Maybe what I can do, is just waiting, waiting for the chance, or even the miracle.
Thank God that the beam shines again on me during the match, the shine that I have been longing for. Once again, after the joy, I am so confused with my feelings, why am I so joyful to have a simple hug from him? My brain keep spinning. Unfornately, the dreadful moment comes without notice. Bremble catches the clearing from Stevie and scores...... The long face on our captain is the least thing I want to see on earth. The match ends with a Draw and I can see how disappointed Stevie is.
I wish I can do something to make him smile again, even for a few seconds, however, it may no longer be my duty to do so, Nando pats on his shoulder and Stevie replies with a sad smile......
I am so proud of our loyal audience in every match for Liverpool, and therefore I am so proud of being a Red, however, the hidden reason for me to stay...... maybe, or just maybe waiting for the beam.
Chapter Title: " I need the beam... even for a few seconds... just a few seconds..."
Pairing: Xabi Alonso/Steven Gerrard
Summary: Xabi is no longer sure about what he felt and sensed~
Feedback: Would be very much appreciated and welcomed!!!!
Author: stevielovesxabi
I need the beam... even for a few seconds... just a few seconds...
After such a long time, the beam comes. Even I am just sharing a little tiny part of it, I am more than satisfied, yes, even sharing with the one I have such a complicated feelings on, I am actually glad to have this chance. It is the match towards Wigan on Anfield, the Kop is again crowded with people, with our supporters, the scene that I am always glad to see.
As the second half started, we kept running on the pitch and looking for the best opportunity. We have to win this match for our chance at the League. We need the all 3 points to fulfill our destiny and we play even harder in the the remaining 45mins. The chance comes! Nando, Finn and Stevie are in good positions! I make a long-range pass to Nando, Nando has a quick pass to Stevie and then to Finn, Finn crosses back to Nando....GOAL!!!!!!! What a perfect goal!
Immediately I run to Nando and celebrate his goal, he's my old friend, my friend from the National Team, a kind-hearted and passionate little buddy, though a bit shy, but love playing football deep in his heart. He's now the star for the Reds, shining like Stevie, and I'm sure Stevie likes him too, in the way they are always celebrating, the way that Stevie keeps on recalling him in front of the press...... just like the way we did in the old days...... the days long long ago......
Am I jealous?
We run along the pitch, and then, Stevie joins us and later on, so do others. He grabs his arm round my neck, I can feel his warmth, his excitement and his joy; the smile on his face, the happiness deep in his heart, that's all I want, even for just a few seconds, even I am sharing it with Nando....... or maybe stealing from what Nando deserves. The wordings is not what I care, what I care is now in my arm, although it lasts for a few seconds alone.
I know it sounds strange, but after the kiss at Istanbul, I just find myself having a strange feeling towards our captain. There is no doubt that he was just too excited and would like to share the joy with a kiss, a kiss with anyone nearby, however, I just cannot forget the memoriable moment.
We were once so close, sharing on every tiny stuff, his Alex, his girls his youngster life, and even our hairstyle and outlooks, I found myself digging my head into his life, I wanted to know everything that has happened on this gorgeous lad. His hegemony, his charisma, he's born to be the captain. He looked so attractive that I had a moment wishing I'm a girl. I don't know how to define my feeling towards him, I have Nagore with me, a beautiful and nice girl that every man will dream for, and my baby which Nagore brings me, the precious present and all, but Stevie, he still takes up a very special position in my heart. Sometimes I will go straight to help him out even Nagore is here in Liverpool. I just cannot understand the embedded reason.
As time flies, I find that we are no longer as close as before. Maybe I have attended too few matches during the year with my injury, maybe I'm not playing as well as the captain expects, or maybe, just maybe, his focus is now on someone else, on our new star, the liverbird recently joined us and brings us hopes. It's normal for a captain to take care of the new lad, especially one who's already a super star in the world football who can bring victories to the Reds. The Reds, that's all Stevie is thinking of. What I can do is just trying my best to get fit, for my own good and the Kop, or maybe, partly for delighting him. I don't know why I am thinking in this way, but, I guess I do really have that thought in my mind somehow.
After some weeks, I am back on the pitch, and finally, playing alongside our captain. I am so glad to have my performance back to standard and maybe, also glad to have the chance to share victories with Stevie again. We are so apart these days and I hope we can be back to the old days again....... My tiny hope seems to be hard to come true as things haven't changed much after I'm back to the team. Maybe what I can do, is just waiting, waiting for the chance, or even the miracle.
Thank God that the beam shines again on me during the match, the shine that I have been longing for. Once again, after the joy, I am so confused with my feelings, why am I so joyful to have a simple hug from him? My brain keep spinning. Unfornately, the dreadful moment comes without notice. Bremble catches the clearing from Stevie and scores...... The long face on our captain is the least thing I want to see on earth. The match ends with a Draw and I can see how disappointed Stevie is.
I wish I can do something to make him smile again, even for a few seconds, however, it may no longer be my duty to do so, Nando pats on his shoulder and Stevie replies with a sad smile......
I am so proud of our loyal audience in every match for Liverpool, and therefore I am so proud of being a Red, however, the hidden reason for me to stay...... maybe, or just maybe waiting for the beam.