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like for the past 5 weeks, im avoiding studying for my chemistry test tommorow.
3 more weeks of school and back to little rock. i have a feeling this might be an awkward summer. conversations like "let's go hang out with them" "naw we cant because than she'd have to come and then it'd be awkward because him and her broke up since college started". people aren't friends with the same friends or going out with the same people. its easy to get over people when you're not around them. it's great to see which of my relationships with friends have lasted.. like really lasted. juliette, sarah, carol, wren, jeff, ben... hmm the others feel a little lost. there seem to be more and more reasons popping up for me to stay here for part of the summer, but i keep putting off deciding.
i havent updated in awhile so here's an update for the few people who read it-->
im doin alright in school, i think im still in a or b category. i dont worry about friends anymore really, i have people who care about me which is a secure feeling. im getting into doing what i want but at that same time feel i feel like ive been bitchy lately. i dont have a job and i havent been looking like i should be. ive been tired lately and ive been sleeping, but not sleeping well. i feel groggy and i just feel like sitting around and not really talking much. when i see some people there's this pressure at the back of my throat that is searching for the words to let out but nothing funny or interesting comes to mind so i usually just make weird gestures and hope people will accept that. im tired of people complaining about school right now, although i dont have hard classes so i just dont have much to complain about. there's pressure at the back of my head to keep it down with my eyes small. i notice when i have my head high somedays and those are the best days. im ashamed of my face sometimes. i sit in bed sometimes and just to lay because it's what i feel like doing, but usually find myself wondering why there's nothing to get me up. just plain lack of energy. lucero will be here on friday. this whole week is likely to be one big frat attack, but i tend to give in. in general, i have more bad days than good and im usually in more good moods than bad.
sarah i have to tell you about my dream:
you came and visited me in fayetteville, but at i was insecure that you werent really there to see me. anywho, we went driving one night through the city and your car was your car but it was a convertible. we started to go through this park and while we were driving the park turned into a zoo, but there was only a small medal bar for cages. there were hippos, than giraffes, than these 2 cheetahs. one was just eating, but the other one started chasing the car. i screamed "cheetahs are the fastest mammals" and you slammed on the gas, but we couldnt lose him. we got to a dead end so i got out for some reason and you turned around. the cheetah ran towards me, but it didnt attack me, it just was trying to hold me for some reason. i jumped back in the car, and we sped off the other way until we lost him. than we went to the other end of the park and just sat on the top of a slide.
if you have any reasoning for that dream, let me know, and i dont want to hear that its some weird freudian sexual thing for cheetahs... damn it i have to stop watching all that cheetah porn.
memphis in may is a week and half away and a drive to conway for taking back sunday and jimmy eat world, which idk how much i like either of those bands, but i like roadtrips and i like the people in conway. then dave matthews concert on june 1st in st.louis. well im excited.
alright kids, back to cheetah porn i mean chemistry.
3 more weeks of school and back to little rock. i have a feeling this might be an awkward summer. conversations like "let's go hang out with them" "naw we cant because than she'd have to come and then it'd be awkward because him and her broke up since college started". people aren't friends with the same friends or going out with the same people. its easy to get over people when you're not around them. it's great to see which of my relationships with friends have lasted.. like really lasted. juliette, sarah, carol, wren, jeff, ben... hmm the others feel a little lost. there seem to be more and more reasons popping up for me to stay here for part of the summer, but i keep putting off deciding.
i havent updated in awhile so here's an update for the few people who read it-->
im doin alright in school, i think im still in a or b category. i dont worry about friends anymore really, i have people who care about me which is a secure feeling. im getting into doing what i want but at that same time feel i feel like ive been bitchy lately. i dont have a job and i havent been looking like i should be. ive been tired lately and ive been sleeping, but not sleeping well. i feel groggy and i just feel like sitting around and not really talking much. when i see some people there's this pressure at the back of my throat that is searching for the words to let out but nothing funny or interesting comes to mind so i usually just make weird gestures and hope people will accept that. im tired of people complaining about school right now, although i dont have hard classes so i just dont have much to complain about. there's pressure at the back of my head to keep it down with my eyes small. i notice when i have my head high somedays and those are the best days. im ashamed of my face sometimes. i sit in bed sometimes and just to lay because it's what i feel like doing, but usually find myself wondering why there's nothing to get me up. just plain lack of energy. lucero will be here on friday. this whole week is likely to be one big frat attack, but i tend to give in. in general, i have more bad days than good and im usually in more good moods than bad.
sarah i have to tell you about my dream:
you came and visited me in fayetteville, but at i was insecure that you werent really there to see me. anywho, we went driving one night through the city and your car was your car but it was a convertible. we started to go through this park and while we were driving the park turned into a zoo, but there was only a small medal bar for cages. there were hippos, than giraffes, than these 2 cheetahs. one was just eating, but the other one started chasing the car. i screamed "cheetahs are the fastest mammals" and you slammed on the gas, but we couldnt lose him. we got to a dead end so i got out for some reason and you turned around. the cheetah ran towards me, but it didnt attack me, it just was trying to hold me for some reason. i jumped back in the car, and we sped off the other way until we lost him. than we went to the other end of the park and just sat on the top of a slide.
if you have any reasoning for that dream, let me know, and i dont want to hear that its some weird freudian sexual thing for cheetahs... damn it i have to stop watching all that cheetah porn.
memphis in may is a week and half away and a drive to conway for taking back sunday and jimmy eat world, which idk how much i like either of those bands, but i like roadtrips and i like the people in conway. then dave matthews concert on june 1st in st.louis. well im excited.
alright kids, back to cheetah porn i mean chemistry.