.:mind games:.
The divergence that I feel and all the conflict growing between us is just unbearable for me. I don’t know what is going on. Nearly everyday is a fight and a struggle between the two of us. Willingly I go along with it because I enjoy it. I like the hurt it brings and I like the making up that follows. But my life shouldn’t be like this.. It is so strange yet passionate in a sick way. I know if I end this ill miss you more than I can bear. And whether I want to admit it or not, I am impulsive and WILL do something about this feeling if I am not cautious. I have become afraid of myself all over again.