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Disclaimer: this is not a pity me post, this is an I've just got to vent post.
Things had just begun to even out for me. Life is starting to go pretty well and my stress level has taken a significant nosedive. I have been starting to think that I might actually be coming into a streak of decent luck and happiness. Then my Dad's birthday was on saturday so I went over to my parents house to celebrate it with mom and dad. Dad, has been sinking further and further into a very deep depression over the past four years and now he is at a place where I really don't know if he can ever get out of it. Well mom and I had all these plans of things to do for dad on his b-day, going out to eat at his favorite restaraunt and taking him to see a movie of his choice and a couple other things. We didn't wind up doing any of them because dad just couldn't bring himself to leave the house. He would hang out with us for a little while, then go take a nap, get up and play some cards, then take another nap. This isn't the worst part though. He kept on talking about how bad he felt and kept saying that he didn't think he could take much more of it. Then, when I left he walked me out to my car, gave me a hug, started crying and told me to take care of Mom if anything happened to him. Fuck that. I've never had a fantastic relationship with my father, but I couldn't handle it if he took his own life. I've never heard him talk like that before, it's fucked up.
Then, on a much lesser note, I've been stoked for over a month about a Def Leppard concert that is tonight at the Spokane Arena. My co-worker said that he could get me and the rest of the people I work with, back stage passes to the concert. I told him a month ago that if he couldn't get them to let me know so I could get tickets and he just kept assuring me and everyone else that it's a done deal and we can pick up our tickets at will call. Well, today, the day of the concert he says that his guy flaked out on him and he couldn't get the tickets. Fuck. This is now the fourth def leppard concert that I've missed due to circumstances beyond my controll.
There, I feel better.
Things had just begun to even out for me. Life is starting to go pretty well and my stress level has taken a significant nosedive. I have been starting to think that I might actually be coming into a streak of decent luck and happiness. Then my Dad's birthday was on saturday so I went over to my parents house to celebrate it with mom and dad. Dad, has been sinking further and further into a very deep depression over the past four years and now he is at a place where I really don't know if he can ever get out of it. Well mom and I had all these plans of things to do for dad on his b-day, going out to eat at his favorite restaraunt and taking him to see a movie of his choice and a couple other things. We didn't wind up doing any of them because dad just couldn't bring himself to leave the house. He would hang out with us for a little while, then go take a nap, get up and play some cards, then take another nap. This isn't the worst part though. He kept on talking about how bad he felt and kept saying that he didn't think he could take much more of it. Then, when I left he walked me out to my car, gave me a hug, started crying and told me to take care of Mom if anything happened to him. Fuck that. I've never had a fantastic relationship with my father, but I couldn't handle it if he took his own life. I've never heard him talk like that before, it's fucked up.
Then, on a much lesser note, I've been stoked for over a month about a Def Leppard concert that is tonight at the Spokane Arena. My co-worker said that he could get me and the rest of the people I work with, back stage passes to the concert. I told him a month ago that if he couldn't get them to let me know so I could get tickets and he just kept assuring me and everyone else that it's a done deal and we can pick up our tickets at will call. Well, today, the day of the concert he says that his guy flaked out on him and he couldn't get the tickets. Fuck. This is now the fourth def leppard concert that I've missed due to circumstances beyond my controll.
There, I feel better.