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OK , so I’m sitting here listening my radio and thinking at work like normal, and I have some cd’s I barrowed from my brother and I just keep thinking that I’m wasting my life away.
I work in a job that no one has ever really heard of, and to be honest one of the dumbest job I’ve ever heard of. Really this is my job,
I’m faxed an invoice from a trucking company that has the country of origin, value, a description of what the driver has, who it’s coming from where it’s going and who’s paying for us to do it. Then I take everything on that invoice retype it into my computer program, change them all to numbers and send it to customs to look at.
Why can’t our customers just do that themselves? I have no clue but they can’t so I get paid to do it for them. Ya there is a little more to it then that but that’s the basic’s of the job.
And while thinking of this I keep thinking why am I doing this? I put up with smelly angry illiterate, uneducated, truck drivers that don’t understand what I’m saying because they don’t speak English, my managers, supervisors, shift leaders, co-workers, and temps that give me no respect. All of them think I have no clue what I’m doing but still dump problems and questions on my lap. They put me on a tether for my internet now, and changes my shifts on a week notice, I’m making less then I should or could at other companies and I really think I’m just sick of all the inner and outer office politics here. I feel like I’m standing still and everything is moving on around me. I refuse to have me golden years pass me by. I’m not going to sit in a basement watching T.V. for the rest of my life. I want to go out and go to clubs go to parties, see concerts, plays, games, just live, cause I really don’t feel that way right now
I miss being a carpenter less stress in good shape making better money having a good time at work where I had a sense of accomplishment. Here I feel stifled, not useful and fat… ok so I put on a few pounds since I started here but still.
I think I’m going through a mid life crisis. I’ve been through more in 22 years then most people do by the time they turn 40, I have some serous issues in my head and I’m sick of ignoring them or just putting them aside until I have more time for them. I’m sick of being broke, I’m sick of being a scapegoat and I’m damn sick of being treated like I’m worthless.
I’ve been kicking around the idea of a long road trip for a while and I’m planning on following through with it. It might not be as long as I originally planned but I’m thinking a weekend away by myself might be just what I need to get me back on track.
I think that I’m going to start looking for a new job soon, maybe 2 whatever I have to cause once I have these bills o’mine paid I’m moving out. I have no clue where might be Port Huron might be Bad Ax might even move down to Cleveland I’m just sure I’m moving.
So anyone that has read all the way through this let me know if you hear about any jobs in any fields starting at $10 an hour, cause I might take that and a server/bar tender job somewhere.