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OMG so i got to see steven today and it was amazing!!!!! i love him sooooo much so i have not seen ev for like forever and i got to go to taco bell wit him and steven he is such an amazing guy. we were all crammed it evs truck and he was singing rascal flatts and so was steve, i looked at steven and smiled really big and said i could live like this forever. and it is SOOOOOO true. i love them sooo much. they are both so sweet and so amazing i cant even describe the feeling. wow what a rush i love it and would love to feel that way. they are talking about moving to another state and me, steven, ev, and evs gurl would all live together for a while ( until me and steve got our own place) and i really want to . so bad. i mean everyone here in LO is really sucky and dont like me ne more so whats stopping me??!?!?! lol i said sounds like a plan so when i am out of school and 18 im probably outta here and movin wit them. never lookin back.!.! i cant wait. hopefully i can survive until then. oh so i steven made me show Ev my arm and he slapped my arm and told me to never do it again. those of you who know me know what i am talking about. but yeah it was depressing to show him almost embarrassing and thats when he and steve brought up the idea of blowing this place and my parents off and gettin outta here as soon as we can. i really hope that comes true. i am sooo donetrying in lo and so done being pushed around and down graded all of the time. at least eith them i wont get that and i would be able to live the dream ive always had ever since i was dressin up and playing with barbie dolls. : ) just the thought of it gives me butterflies i sooo want to be Mrs. Saylor. as one of my favorite singers say " im gunna stop looking back and start movin on" i will love with all my heart and go out on a ledge iand i will enjoy it soooo much. so goodbye to LO soon i shall be gone. : ) wether i run or say good bye i am going. im a new person and makein a life out of it!!