Finally I've found an answer to my questions
I miss the days of old, the kind of times where you told something to somebody in confidence and it stayed between them. I feel like i'm the only person at the moment who still does that. I miss all my old friends and the old times. I miss asking people questions and telling them my opinions without being jumped at and questioned. I do read way too much into things and I do ask a lot of questions but I have been so screwed over by so many people it's unbelievable. I need to get my head clear and thinking right, it's getting scary, Novemeber 18th can't come quick enough for me, last night people were speaking a foriegn language i couldn't understand it, and that's not just the foriegners I met. Why can't I think of things properly, or do anything that requires a lot of hard thinking....I used to, I wasn't always retarded. Did my last fit give me a slight damage to my brain? I've just found out the person helping me in my case against works husband died from epilepsy so it could be possible. I need brain scans, I need....I need something I don't know what yet. I want to move out but I doubt it'd be a good idea......I need to leave.......I need to leave Yorkshire and everyone in it. I need to make a new life, I can't deal with the people here.....that's the answer.....I need to leave, and soon.....but then again this could just be because i'm ill at the moment and not sleeping well, and life ain't going how i planned. I do hope it is in some ways in others i don't. Only time will tell what life's got in store for me